Today...
I had alot of fun with Zell today. Who would of thought of me... hanging out with someone doing that kinda stuff. if you told me a month ago stuff like this was going to happen I would of laughed my ass off. If you told me I'd feel like this I would of probably stabbed you o_O; Lol.
He's so much fun to be around. He smiles so much. The... way he laughs. Its so cute. He still laughs the same... have you guys noticed that? His eyes still have that sweet innocent twinkle... that one... like... thats even there when there isn't any light. I dont know... He kissed me today... and it freaked me out... yeah its pretty obvious my crush is on him but still... it just took me off guard... I got scared. it was like a rush... of all these feelings I dont know if I should have or not...
Hell. I dont care what you all post to what I say... so I'm going to be frank. I'm bitter right now. Very very bitter. someone already lied to me... they are going away. said they wouldn't and they are. slowly... but surely... you all will break into your own lives... and I will be forgotten again. ...yeah. Would... Zell stick around? ....it would be weird of me to all of a sudden ask someone to be around me forever... actually its insane. Lol. Ah well... I'm brave. I can take anything... so... I'll take a chance I guess...
a;das;dlmas maybe. x_x; ... you people know I'm computer illiterate... how can I make this private...
He's so much fun to be around. He smiles so much. The... way he laughs. Its so cute. He still laughs the same... have you guys noticed that? His eyes still have that sweet innocent twinkle... that one... like... thats even there when there isn't any light. I dont know... He kissed me today... and it freaked me out... yeah its pretty obvious my crush is on him but still... it just took me off guard... I got scared. it was like a rush... of all these feelings I dont know if I should have or not...
Hell. I dont care what you all post to what I say... so I'm going to be frank. I'm bitter right now. Very very bitter. someone already lied to me... they are going away. said they wouldn't and they are. slowly... but surely... you all will break into your own lives... and I will be forgotten again. ...yeah. Would... Zell stick around? ....it would be weird of me to all of a sudden ask someone to be around me forever... actually its insane. Lol. Ah well... I'm brave. I can take anything... so... I'll take a chance I guess...
a;das;dlmas maybe. x_x; ... you people know I'm computer illiterate... how can I make this private...