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[laina_chaise]

Thanks alot. I can't think straight. I can't focus. the sais dont even look right in my hands today. I was twirling like I always do. showing off like I always have... and nothing felt right. I just... whats wrong with me? I can shake anything. Yeah... I can. you dont have a hold over me anymore. I dont even really remember you. ....yeah I do. it's

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[leonhart_x]

Hi, Milaina. Or Laina. Whatever. I saw you today, but didn't say anything. I figured you wouldn't want to be bothered. I understood.

You know, you really have changed from the girl I used to know. I was thinking about the past today. Sometimes I try not to, but today it was inevitable for some reason. Anyway, I thought about all of us when we were kids. It all came back to me when I was with everyone. It was strange. I mean, I remembered everyone else. But I learned that a while ago, during the whole deal with Sorceress Edea/Ultimecia. For some reason though, you and Rylie were blocked out from my memory. I wonder.. of all people, why was it you two? Rylie was the first girl I ever loved ("childhood sweethearts," but love nonetheless), and you... I thought about you and started humming a song. It was then that I realized it was the song you used to sing to me--before Rylie came along--to comfort me. I remembered that.

It still bothers me that my memory eventually remembered everyone except you and Rylie, at first. I'm glad to have Rylie back. And even you--although you've changed. It's that sort of deep-seeded... happiness... or whatever. -Shrugs.- Something like that.

Well, if I see you sometime.... I promise to say something. It's quite unlike me... but you're someone important from my past, so there's an exception.

Bye.

Hi Squall o_o;

[laina_chaise]

Wanna know whats funny? You're the -first- person I remembered... yeah... I remember that song too. though I cheated... I had the lyrics writen down in an old sketch pad. I'm going to try at this... I am. but I'm scared. so... yeah. It'll take me a while to find myself... but I'll do it. I'm hating everyone for all the wrong reasons... ha. >_> it took me over a decade to realize that. In a childs mind I thought you all left by choice, and a grew up thinking that and never bothered to change my thinking... I understand it all a little better now...

Yeah... so... I still can't remember things all that well but... heh... yeah. I missed you guys.

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[leonhart_x]

Well, by all means, take your time. Finding yourself doesn't happen overnight. It's not some "wake-up-in-the-morning" revelation type of thing. Not in real life, anyway.

Yeah. I think I speak for us all when I say we missed you, too.

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[laina_chaise]

Yeah. so... when one of you guys isn't busy... wanna like help me... out here. I feel ... well confused. I keep thinking one person is the other... and stuff. and no one wants to know who i thought seifer was :|

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[leonhart_x]

Well, I... being the leader of this whole group... maybe I should. ...Or maybe Rylie. She's good at that kind of thing. Far better than me. Plus, you guys have something in common--no one remembered either of you initially.

But whatever.

Both of us are awake. Separate rooms (for once... heh...), so I guess... don't hesitate. Whenever you feel like it, that is.

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[laina_chaise]

Okay... first. Thanks for the overshare o_O;

<<; which one was seifer? Was irvine there? I think he was.... and I -think- zell was there too and... I know Rylie and Selphie were there... but I keep like... getting them confused with each other and... thats just weird. :| and... there was another girl, right? -.- ...I dont think I'll ever be able to remember... and I kinda feel bad.

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[leonhart_x]

Yeah. Sorry about that. .....

Hmm. Confused on the who's-who...?

I'll try this.

Me: Well, you already know. Look. Here I am.
Rylie: Obvious. My girl back then. My girl now. Always was the true leader, and Miss Empathy.
Seifer: The one who would endlessly torment me and Zell; would also try to win you and Rylie over.
Selphie: The really hyper, bubbly one. Always cheerful. Nothing's changed about her, to say the least.
Zell: Easy. The one Seifer was always picking on. He's eased up since, but... yeah. Also your own "childhood sweetheart."
Irvine: The one who was always so smitten with Selphie. Now look; they're together.
Quistis: Our "big sister"... in a sense. Usually pretty quiet. Kinda bossy back then.

Maybe that helped. Hope so.

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[laina_chaise]

>; everyone who was together back then is together now... ~_~ oh god... You guys better not even Go there. I am so serious. Anyways... yeah... bleh... I dont know... why but like I feel really happy all of a sudden. but at the same time... I dont think I should be... something tells me I'll be alone again. ...tch... bleh. I could handle it again. I'll just take in the good now and take what happens later, later. But like... are you guys sure like... I'm not all like envading at a bad time... everyone is all having all these things going on it looks like... and I just pop out of no where... .........no. this wasn't a good idea. -.-

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[leonhart_x]

Wow. Scary. Identity crisis, anyone? Zell and Seifer, interchangable...? Halloween is over, Laina... heh.

Anyway, no problem. I help when I can, when I need to.

And I said, try not to take this in all at once. If you do, you'll go into some sort of memory/thought/emotion overload. Trust me. Been there.

...As for your coming up all of a sudden? Not a bad idea. Not in the least.

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[laina_chaise]

Thanks... that last sentence is what I really wanted to hear... from anyone else I would of concidered it Bullshit =P