i am back...
i know it has been a long time since i wrote in here and i don't even know if it's a good idea to write this entry or not. Well i'll give it a try.
I am back home from Canada for 2 weeks and 2 days now and i am slowly feeling better. i had such a great time with my bf and i enjoyed every minute. Sadly we only had 1,5 weeks. But hey it's better than nothing right? Since we didn't see us for 9 month before i was very happy about those 1,5 weeks. We did a lot of fun things, had a great new years party and a nice day in Toronto. But the day i left was horrible. I cried so much because i knew i will not see him for a long time again and it will be so hard to go back to normal life. But here i am now, still fighting with my tears while i write this and missing him like hell.
Now i know, he's back where he needs to be. We have even more time difference now but that's just the way it is and i need to accept and cope with it.
I didn't really find a way to cope yet. I am just trying to distract myself and just accept the situation. Everyone i've asked (who had a long distance relationship or left their family) said that time will heal everything. So i am hoping my heart will heal fast.
He told me that he loves that he'll stay with me during last hard part till we finally can be together and he said some things wich meant a lot to me. I believe him and i won't give up!!! I will stay strong. I will stay with him and go through all this. And still, being apart hurts.
Missing him (or going away) was never as bad as it is this time. I don't really know what is different but i think we just became closer in our relationship and that makes it even harder so say goodbye or to say "see you later". I love him so much!
in the end, time will pass by fast every minute time is passing.
Today i don’t feel too good but i hope that’s becoming better soon. Hopefully i can talk to my bf today either on skype or on the phone. I miss him...
Lain
I am back home from Canada for 2 weeks and 2 days now and i am slowly feeling better. i had such a great time with my bf and i enjoyed every minute. Sadly we only had 1,5 weeks. But hey it's better than nothing right? Since we didn't see us for 9 month before i was very happy about those 1,5 weeks. We did a lot of fun things, had a great new years party and a nice day in Toronto. But the day i left was horrible. I cried so much because i knew i will not see him for a long time again and it will be so hard to go back to normal life. But here i am now, still fighting with my tears while i write this and missing him like hell.
Now i know, he's back where he needs to be. We have even more time difference now but that's just the way it is and i need to accept and cope with it.
I didn't really find a way to cope yet. I am just trying to distract myself and just accept the situation. Everyone i've asked (who had a long distance relationship or left their family) said that time will heal everything. So i am hoping my heart will heal fast.
He told me that he loves that he'll stay with me during last hard part till we finally can be together and he said some things wich meant a lot to me. I believe him and i won't give up!!! I will stay strong. I will stay with him and go through all this. And still, being apart hurts.
Missing him (or going away) was never as bad as it is this time. I don't really know what is different but i think we just became closer in our relationship and that makes it even harder so say goodbye or to say "see you later". I love him so much!
in the end, time will pass by fast every minute time is passing.
Today i don’t feel too good but i hope that’s becoming better soon. Hopefully i can talk to my bf today either on skype or on the phone. I miss him...
Lain