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oh man do i have to fuck up ever single social relationship? or always get into really odd ones?
i have a complete misinterpretation from one side and on the other i have someone who i can't seem to really get into no matter how hard i try
i tried tonight again but goddamit if i stated my reasons with what was wrong, i might be called mean, hypocritical, and materialistic.
i don't know why i think these things but i am glad i never actually say them.
seriously, i really want to get over some things..and i think to myself...ok, i know he always smells like food but maybe...just maybe...i can convince him to take showers more often...and perhaps i can even get him to clean his car...the smell of food is going to make puke...
ok, am i a bad person? for not really knowing how to communicate myself a whole lot better...
i find it so incredibly annoying that i just laugh everything off like it doesn't bother me...
how come i have a problem with every single guy i meet? every single one of them...
two things i can never get over: hygeine and poor mental health
i just wish that for once i would meet a guy who was both hygenic and mentally stable...i wouldn't care if his face was as ugly as his butt, it would be just fine by me because he would be a normal, clean guy on the inside..
but this is besides the point...actually, there is really nothing wrong with this one guy...i suppose that i am looking for reasons why this shouldn't work...
the worst part of it is that my best friend wouldn't even pick up the phone when i needed her the most! she was too busy watching her csi and eating brownies...
speaking of friends....i have this really crazy one who always asks to go out to the club on the weekends but says it in such a tone as if i have to go...she doesn't have a car, that's why i never want to go with her..perhaps if she were a nicer person who didn't pressure people into akward situations, she would be going out more often...but the fact that noone else wants to be her friend cos she is inconsiderate of other's feelings is her problem...
i had to deal with it too when i came here, it helped me grow up...and besides, i was nice to her and i took her to the club once...i don't HAVE to do it again...and i DON'T need her friendship because i have many friends as it is...
this was really long and it would have been shorter if my best friend hadn't recorded csi and had been watching a CSI marathon for the past 6 hours...
i have a complete misinterpretation from one side and on the other i have someone who i can't seem to really get into no matter how hard i try
i tried tonight again but goddamit if i stated my reasons with what was wrong, i might be called mean, hypocritical, and materialistic.
i don't know why i think these things but i am glad i never actually say them.
seriously, i really want to get over some things..and i think to myself...ok, i know he always smells like food but maybe...just maybe...i can convince him to take showers more often...and perhaps i can even get him to clean his car...the smell of food is going to make puke...
ok, am i a bad person? for not really knowing how to communicate myself a whole lot better...
i find it so incredibly annoying that i just laugh everything off like it doesn't bother me...
how come i have a problem with every single guy i meet? every single one of them...
two things i can never get over: hygeine and poor mental health
i just wish that for once i would meet a guy who was both hygenic and mentally stable...i wouldn't care if his face was as ugly as his butt, it would be just fine by me because he would be a normal, clean guy on the inside..
but this is besides the point...actually, there is really nothing wrong with this one guy...i suppose that i am looking for reasons why this shouldn't work...
the worst part of it is that my best friend wouldn't even pick up the phone when i needed her the most! she was too busy watching her csi and eating brownies...
speaking of friends....i have this really crazy one who always asks to go out to the club on the weekends but says it in such a tone as if i have to go...she doesn't have a car, that's why i never want to go with her..perhaps if she were a nicer person who didn't pressure people into akward situations, she would be going out more often...but the fact that noone else wants to be her friend cos she is inconsiderate of other's feelings is her problem...
i had to deal with it too when i came here, it helped me grow up...and besides, i was nice to her and i took her to the club once...i don't HAVE to do it again...and i DON'T need her friendship because i have many friends as it is...
this was really long and it would have been shorter if my best friend hadn't recorded csi and had been watching a CSI marathon for the past 6 hours...