hey I like your new layout. I know what you mean about the right words hiding. Sometimes I just want to attach a wire to my head so all the words inside can be written on computer. I really liked all your thoughts they were cool. of course you are a good person, of course. and of course your not manufactured to oush people away. your ' defects' as you call them are not your fault and if the people who you hang with cant handle you then there are not the right friends for you. The cool thing is when one can see there bad points and work on them. Sometimes I think thats the difference between us and them, they cannot see their bad points and they carry on with life blissfully unaware of the traits they will pass onto there sporn but us..we constantely think about how we could change, and be better, perhaps we are too aware of how we are..who knows. I hope your ok dude x where you from? How was today for you?
Thanks for you're kind words, makes me feel better. I agree abut the wire thing. Just unedited brain electricity put into word form. That would be great.
Where am I from? My mother originally, he he. But, I live in Northern Indiana now.
I was just having a sucky day, with depressing thoughts and wanted to post about them, just to get it out of my head. I feel better now, I just have days where I am really hard on myself and wonder "What's the point of any of this."
Yeah I get that, its like whats the point if Im constantely struggling to get by. Everyday is a struggle, sometimes I want to scream and shout and kick but I dont so the tension builds up inside me which makes it worse urgh. Im really ill at the moment- Ive got tonsilitis through smoking just too much. I haven't harmed in a week Im pretty proud. I know this is a weird question but have you ever been in hospital for your stuff? Im glad my words made you feel better, getting your reply made me feel good too. Hope you have a good day and all. I dont know the time difference between london and indiana but I bet its huge. stay cool xxx
Sorry you're ill :(. It sucks being so, no matter why or what you are sick with.
That's not a wierd question, mostly because yes I have. In a mental hospital overnight for 'observation'. Apparently they thought I was going to kill myself. *rolls eyes* But really I just had a reaction to the meds. they put me on and I had cut up my arm.
Yeah the time difference must be like 10 hours or something. Not sure. I'm up at strange times anyway, so no big deal.
Hey thanks my dy is going ok I guess in bed with sex and the city and so many drugs to stop this horrible pain argh. Ive nearly been in hospital twice, once my mum asked me if I needed to go and the other I tried to put myself in but I guess I had to be bleeding or something cause they just looked at me like I was a freak so I ran away. That was when I was 17 im 20 now. Sometimes I think I wantto go inhto hospital, just to rest, to cut, to shout, to scream, to be sedated without feeling the intense pressure of life outside where I feel I cant do any of this stuff so it builds. 10 hours hey? Well im up until like 5 in the morning most days ( insomniac) so hopefully we will speak again tonight. stay cool x
Ywah, I'm not sure how your hostpitals there are, but, here, not so much on the fun scale. I think it's around 10 hours, I have no idea. And, yeah, hopefully we can talk again! :).
I really liked all your thoughts they were cool.
of course you are a good person, of course. and of course your not manufactured to oush people away. your ' defects' as you call them are not your fault and if the people who you hang with cant handle you then there are not the right friends for you. The cool thing is when one can see there bad points and work on them. Sometimes I think thats the difference between us and them, they cannot see their bad points and they carry on with life blissfully unaware of the traits they will pass onto there sporn but us..we constantely think about how we could change, and be better, perhaps we are too aware of how we are..who knows. I hope your ok dude
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where you from? How was today for you?
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Where am I from? My mother originally, he he. But, I live in Northern Indiana now.
I was just having a sucky day, with depressing thoughts and wanted to post about them, just to get it out of my head. I feel better now, I just have days where I am really hard on myself and wonder "What's the point of any of this."
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Im glad my words made you feel better, getting your reply made me feel good too. Hope you have a good day and all. I dont know the time difference between london and indiana but I bet its huge.
stay cool
xxx
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That's not a wierd question, mostly because yes I have. In a mental hospital overnight for 'observation'. Apparently they thought I was going to kill myself. *rolls eyes* But really I just had a reaction to the meds. they put me on and I had cut up my arm.
Yeah the time difference must be like 10 hours or something. Not sure. I'm up at strange times anyway, so no big deal.
My day is fine so far. Hope you fare well too :).
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thanks my dy is going ok I guess in bed with sex and the city and so many drugs to stop this horrible pain argh.
Ive nearly been in hospital twice, once my mum asked me if I needed to go and the other I tried to put myself in but I guess I had to be bleeding or something cause they just looked at me like I was a freak so I ran away. That was when I was 17 im 20 now. Sometimes I think I wantto go inhto hospital, just to rest, to cut, to shout, to scream, to be sedated without feeling the intense pressure of life outside where I feel I cant do any of this stuff so it builds. 10 hours hey? Well im up until like 5 in the morning most days ( insomniac) so hopefully we will speak again tonight.
stay cool
x
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Ywah, I'm not sure how your hostpitals there are, but, here, not so much on the fun scale.
I think it's around 10 hours, I have no idea. And, yeah, hopefully we can talk again! :).
I'm always cool. . .
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haha I bet your always cool. Im feeling better today. Maybe I could habe a joint today eho knows hehe! Feeling mildly happy today too.
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