another emo entry
i think this picture is exactly what i've been feeling for the past couple of days. sadness mixed with confusion, but still ... moving on with life.
it's going to be a busy week for me... school-wise. i have to finish that damn asian-american term paper before thanksgiving so i don't have to do it during my break. then i have to write a rough draft for phaedrus and i can't forget about my glob paper. ughhh fuck college. i hope all this work i have to do will help me from missing raoul.
he told me he couldn't talk to me this whole week and the only time we could talk was an hour ago and i had to eat (i was starving). i told him i had to go, but he just got mad. he said that he wasn't going to talk to me after that. he's not fair at all. why do i have to drop everything i'm doing just to talk to him? he doesn't do the same for me. the thing that's stupid is, i'm willing to do just that. he tells me he barely has time for me so when he does, i take it. it's really hard. i want to stay with him, but i wish he'd put a little bit more effort into maintaining our relationship. for now, alls i could do is wait until thanksgiving and i hope he'll spend every moment with me.
kk i gotta read for rhetoric.