Guns and Feathers - a Dean/Castiel Fanmix
I did it! I finished my first fanmix ♥ Yes original title, I know >_> Uh I'm not too good at editting graphics and stuff so ignore the crappy Photoshop skills, kay? I hope you like the musics ^^
Title: Guns and Feathers
Author: laifan, who owns none of the tracks and none of the images used, for that matter.
Rating: Pg-13
Genre and/or Pairing: Dean/Cas, angst.
Spoilers: Seasons 4 and 5
Warnings: Most of the musics are mp3, some are wma format. Large images behind the cut. Because I'm a total noob to files sharing sites you're gonna have to download each music seperatedly instead of the whole folder. Sorry =/
The opening and final tracks will be more generic than Dean/Cas oriented. Some of the tracks have dark themes as you probably expect already. Also, the tracks have an order - I'm trying to tell the story through them. I tried to use various bands and kinda failed - you'll probably guess my favourite bands from this.
Download: Guns and Feathers
1- Moonspell - At Tragic Heights
This is from a Portuguese band. This music represents Dean's time in Hell and the despair of it all. It's also related to Sam in a way and to the apocalypse in general.
At Tragic Heights
["And the first went, and poured upon the earth; and there fell (...)
A grievous sore upon the men which had the mark of the beast (...).
"And the second angel poured out the vial upon the sea;
And it became as the blood of a dead man;
And every living soul died in the sea.
"And the fourth angel poured out his vial upon the sun;
And power was given unto him to scorch men with fire.
"And the seventh angel pured out his vial into the air;
And there came a great voice
Out the temple of heaven, from the throne, saying: It is done."
(Book Of Revelation #16, John)]
At tragic heights
A failure pure
Surrender to nothing
But the truth
Fall now - endlessly
Into the ashes
And dare to know
At tragic heights
She hangs from the sky
A requiem played
In a broken heart
At tragic days
The height of truth
Trust no one but your own blood
Shade now - eternally into the hearts
And dare to be cruel
At tragic heights
She hangs from the sky
A requiem played
In a broken heart
At stars unborn
All has begun
At the shadow sun
Delirium
At tragic heights
She hangs from the sky
A requiem played
In a broken heart
In a rotten heart
2- Coldplay - Fix You
This one represents Castiel saving Dean from Hell and Dean's state of mind.
Coldplay - Fix You
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
3- Lacuna Coil - Oblivion
This song is beautiful and I think it totally represents Dean. It reflects his confusion about everything and the darkness Hell left in him.
Lacuna Coil - Oblivion
It's a fairy tale, and the story's out of date
Nothing that I have or try to say
Know that that the road is lonely
I will need some help
Know that this life is crazy
I will need some help
There's a place far below
The darkness deep within
It's a place I don't belong
Come set me free from this oblivion
On the side of me
On the edge of agony
Nothing left for me that I can fake
You know that the road is lonely
I will need some help
You know that this life is crazy
I will need some help
There's a place far below
The darkness deep within
It's a place I don't belong
Come set me free from this oblivion
It's a fairy tale, and the story's out of date
Nothing that I have or try to say
And I... I keep wondering away
I'm so deep in disarray
I keep wondering
There's a place far below
The darkness deep within
It's a place I don't belong
Come set me free, set me free
I keep wondering (set me free)
I keep wondering (set me free)
I keep wondering (set me free. come set me free, set me free)
4- Linkin Park - In the End
This represents the passage of time and how the apocalypse draws near. Dean starts trusting Castiel more.
In The End
(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
5- Metallica - Fade to Black
More angst for Dean, yes. Basically when he finds out he started the whole thing.
Metallica - Fade to Black
Life, it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Can't stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone
No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye, *Goodbye*
6- Steve Conte - Heaven's Not Enough
Castiel begins to have doubts
Steve Conte - Heaven’s Not Enough
Heaven's not enough
if when you get there..
just another blue
and Heaven's not enough
you think you've found it
and it loses you
You've thought of all there is
but not enough
and it loses you in a cloud
"there" most everything is nothin'
that it seems
"where" you see the things you only wanna see
I'd fly away
to a higher plane
to say words I resist
to float away
to sigh
to breathe....forget
And Heaven's not enough
if when I'm there I don't remember you
and Heaven does enough
you think you know it
and it uses you
I saw so many things
but like a dream
always losing me in a cloud
Cause I couldn't cry
cause I turned away
couldn't see the score
didn't know the pain
of leaving yesterday really far behind
in another life
in another dream
by a different name
gave it all away
for a memory
and a quiet lie
and I felt the face
of a cold tonight
still don't know the score
but I know the pain
of leaving everything really far behind
and if I could cry
and if I could live what truth I did then take me there
Heaven goodbye
7- Cranberries - Be Careful
This song can be about both Dean and Castiel. Basically about their feelinsg for each other.
Cranberries - Be Careful
I thought that he was insecure
But I don't think so anymore
Think about what you’re living for
Now that you've opened up that door
Be careful what you’re wishing
Be careful what you’re wishing
Be careful what you’re wishing for
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low
For, the dictator, be careful what you’re living for
Alcohol & cocaine, I think it's driving you insane
Be careful what you’re wishing for
Now that you’ve opened up that door
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low
You might scream
You might shout
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low.
8- Lacuna Coil - Falling Again
Well at least the title fits Dean perfectly. So much angst XD Basically this is after Cas is given a little reeducation in bible camp.
Lacuna Coil - Falling Again
I lay, looking at my hands
I search in these lines
I've not the answer
I'm crying and I don't know
watching the sky
I search an answer
I'm free, free to be
I'm not another liar
I just want to be myself... myself
And now the beat inside me
is a sort of a cold breeze and I've
never any feeling inside
ruining me...
bring my body
carry it into another world
I know I live... but like a stone I'm falling down
I pray, looking into the sky
I can feel this rain
right now it's falling on me
fly, I just want to fly
life is all mine
some days I cry alone,
but I know I'm not the only one
I'm here, another day is gone
I don't want to die...?
Please be there when I'll arrive, don't cry... please
9- Coldplay - What If
Castiel's indecision about whether to help Dean or side with the angels in the final episode of season 4.
Coldplay - What If
What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know it, if you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know when you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
10- Moonspell - First Light
Basically? When shit hits the fan and Lucifer's free and Cas dies. Parts of it are in Portuguese, which I will translate.
First Light
Somewhere inside a soul
A shadow is taking over
My questions are being answered
An act of courage
My story is being told
Somewhere inside these four walls
Another war has begun
The prodigal Son came home tonight
To slay his father
And drink his blood
Noite eterna (Night eternal)
Primeira vida (First life)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
Noite eterna (night eternal)
Primeira sombra (first shadow)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
With the violence of a first light
Somewhere in a rose of death
A leader is being followed
His cities are catching fire
But he doesn't hear
His people screaming
Somewhere as the morning breaks
Steps are heard in the shattering glass
The bride to be returned to the feast
To make love end
Noite eterna (Night eternal)
Primeira vida (First life)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
Noite eterna (night eternal)
Primeira sombra (first shadow)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
With the violence of a first light
Hordes of the Shadow Sun
Afire with the intuition
We are a race of sorrows beholding
The tear and the wear of the Earth
FIRST LIGHT, CURSED BE!
11- Coldplay - Prospekt's March - Poppyfields
Castiel after he's revived and cut off from Heaven. I can imagine him wandering around a burned out city in the first stanza
Coldplay - Prospekt's March - Poppyfields
Smoke is rising from the houses
People bury in their dead
I ask somebody what the time is
But time doesn’t matter to them yet
People talkin’ without speakin’
Trying to take what they can get
I ask you if you remember
Prospekt, how could I forget?
Drums
Here it comes
Don’t you wish that life could be as simple
As fish swimming round in a barrel?
When you’ve got the gun
Oh and I run
Here it comes
We’re just two little figures in a soup bowl
Trying to get behind a kind of control
But I wasn’t one
Now here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
And here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
I don’t wanna die
On my own here tonight
But here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
12- Lacuna Coil - Self Deception
Castiel isn't too happy with Dean mocking his idea of finding God. After all he rebelled for him.
Lacuna Coil - Self Deception
I'll never waste another day
searching to find the reason
why did I choose to play this game
this goes too far
I'll take no more
I played the part and took the blame
while you pretend nothing is real
life turned to night as you're asleep
blood flowing down, is this a dream?
Liar, you tempt me
I don't know what to do
no guilt is in my heart
I don't know what to do
I'm not the reason
I'll never waste another day
forever lost
no reason
he never choose to play this game
taken too far out of control
Liar, you tempt me
I don't know what to do
no guilt is in my heart
I don't know what to do
I'm not the reason
13- Staind - So Far Away
And this is the final music. For all the good times Dean and Cas spend together.
This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping
Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
Title: Guns and Feathers
Author: laifan, who owns none of the tracks and none of the images used, for that matter.
Rating: Pg-13
Genre and/or Pairing: Dean/Cas, angst.
Spoilers: Seasons 4 and 5
Warnings: Most of the musics are mp3, some are wma format. Large images behind the cut. Because I'm a total noob to files sharing sites you're gonna have to download each music seperatedly instead of the whole folder. Sorry =/
The opening and final tracks will be more generic than Dean/Cas oriented. Some of the tracks have dark themes as you probably expect already. Also, the tracks have an order - I'm trying to tell the story through them. I tried to use various bands and kinda failed - you'll probably guess my favourite bands from this.
Download: Guns and Feathers
1- Moonspell - At Tragic Heights
This is from a Portuguese band. This music represents Dean's time in Hell and the despair of it all. It's also related to Sam in a way and to the apocalypse in general.
At Tragic Heights
["And the first went, and poured upon the earth; and there fell (...)
A grievous sore upon the men which had the mark of the beast (...).
"And the second angel poured out the vial upon the sea;
And it became as the blood of a dead man;
And every living soul died in the sea.
"And the fourth angel poured out his vial upon the sun;
And power was given unto him to scorch men with fire.
"And the seventh angel pured out his vial into the air;
And there came a great voice
Out the temple of heaven, from the throne, saying: It is done."
(Book Of Revelation #16, John)]
At tragic heights
A failure pure
Surrender to nothing
But the truth
Fall now - endlessly
Into the ashes
And dare to know
At tragic heights
She hangs from the sky
A requiem played
In a broken heart
At tragic days
The height of truth
Trust no one but your own blood
Shade now - eternally into the hearts
And dare to be cruel
At tragic heights
She hangs from the sky
A requiem played
In a broken heart
At stars unborn
All has begun
At the shadow sun
Delirium
At tragic heights
She hangs from the sky
A requiem played
In a broken heart
In a rotten heart
2- Coldplay - Fix You
This one represents Castiel saving Dean from Hell and Dean's state of mind.
Coldplay - Fix You
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
3- Lacuna Coil - Oblivion
This song is beautiful and I think it totally represents Dean. It reflects his confusion about everything and the darkness Hell left in him.
Lacuna Coil - Oblivion
It's a fairy tale, and the story's out of date
Nothing that I have or try to say
Know that that the road is lonely
I will need some help
Know that this life is crazy
I will need some help
There's a place far below
The darkness deep within
It's a place I don't belong
Come set me free from this oblivion
On the side of me
On the edge of agony
Nothing left for me that I can fake
You know that the road is lonely
I will need some help
You know that this life is crazy
I will need some help
There's a place far below
The darkness deep within
It's a place I don't belong
Come set me free from this oblivion
It's a fairy tale, and the story's out of date
Nothing that I have or try to say
And I... I keep wondering away
I'm so deep in disarray
I keep wondering
There's a place far below
The darkness deep within
It's a place I don't belong
Come set me free, set me free
I keep wondering (set me free)
I keep wondering (set me free)
I keep wondering (set me free. come set me free, set me free)
4- Linkin Park - In the End
This represents the passage of time and how the apocalypse draws near. Dean starts trusting Castiel more.
In The End
(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
5- Metallica - Fade to Black
More angst for Dean, yes. Basically when he finds out he started the whole thing.
Metallica - Fade to Black
Life, it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Can't stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone
No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye, *Goodbye*
6- Steve Conte - Heaven's Not Enough
Castiel begins to have doubts
Steve Conte - Heaven’s Not Enough
Heaven's not enough
if when you get there..
just another blue
and Heaven's not enough
you think you've found it
and it loses you
You've thought of all there is
but not enough
and it loses you in a cloud
"there" most everything is nothin'
that it seems
"where" you see the things you only wanna see
I'd fly away
to a higher plane
to say words I resist
to float away
to sigh
to breathe....forget
And Heaven's not enough
if when I'm there I don't remember you
and Heaven does enough
you think you know it
and it uses you
I saw so many things
but like a dream
always losing me in a cloud
Cause I couldn't cry
cause I turned away
couldn't see the score
didn't know the pain
of leaving yesterday really far behind
in another life
in another dream
by a different name
gave it all away
for a memory
and a quiet lie
and I felt the face
of a cold tonight
still don't know the score
but I know the pain
of leaving everything really far behind
and if I could cry
and if I could live what truth I did then take me there
Heaven goodbye
7- Cranberries - Be Careful
This song can be about both Dean and Castiel. Basically about their feelinsg for each other.
Cranberries - Be Careful
I thought that he was insecure
But I don't think so anymore
Think about what you’re living for
Now that you've opened up that door
Be careful what you’re wishing
Be careful what you’re wishing
Be careful what you’re wishing for
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low
For, the dictator, be careful what you’re living for
Alcohol & cocaine, I think it's driving you insane
Be careful what you’re wishing for
Now that you’ve opened up that door
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low
You might scream
You might shout
You might scream
You might shout
Trying to suss it out
Sinking low.
8- Lacuna Coil - Falling Again
Well at least the title fits Dean perfectly. So much angst XD Basically this is after Cas is given a little reeducation in bible camp.
Lacuna Coil - Falling Again
I lay, looking at my hands
I search in these lines
I've not the answer
I'm crying and I don't know
watching the sky
I search an answer
I'm free, free to be
I'm not another liar
I just want to be myself... myself
And now the beat inside me
is a sort of a cold breeze and I've
never any feeling inside
ruining me...
bring my body
carry it into another world
I know I live... but like a stone I'm falling down
I pray, looking into the sky
I can feel this rain
right now it's falling on me
fly, I just want to fly
life is all mine
some days I cry alone,
but I know I'm not the only one
I'm here, another day is gone
I don't want to die...?
Please be there when I'll arrive, don't cry... please
9- Coldplay - What If
Castiel's indecision about whether to help Dean or side with the angels in the final episode of season 4.
Coldplay - What If
What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know it, if you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know when you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
10- Moonspell - First Light
Basically? When shit hits the fan and Lucifer's free and Cas dies. Parts of it are in Portuguese, which I will translate.
First Light
Somewhere inside a soul
A shadow is taking over
My questions are being answered
An act of courage
My story is being told
Somewhere inside these four walls
Another war has begun
The prodigal Son came home tonight
To slay his father
And drink his blood
Noite eterna (Night eternal)
Primeira vida (First life)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
Noite eterna (night eternal)
Primeira sombra (first shadow)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
With the violence of a first light
Somewhere in a rose of death
A leader is being followed
His cities are catching fire
But he doesn't hear
His people screaming
Somewhere as the morning breaks
Steps are heard in the shattering glass
The bride to be returned to the feast
To make love end
Noite eterna (Night eternal)
Primeira vida (First life)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
Noite eterna (night eternal)
Primeira sombra (first shadow)
Ainda por revelar (still to reveal itself)
With the violence of a first light
Hordes of the Shadow Sun
Afire with the intuition
We are a race of sorrows beholding
The tear and the wear of the Earth
FIRST LIGHT, CURSED BE!
11- Coldplay - Prospekt's March - Poppyfields
Castiel after he's revived and cut off from Heaven. I can imagine him wandering around a burned out city in the first stanza
Coldplay - Prospekt's March - Poppyfields
Smoke is rising from the houses
People bury in their dead
I ask somebody what the time is
But time doesn’t matter to them yet
People talkin’ without speakin’
Trying to take what they can get
I ask you if you remember
Prospekt, how could I forget?
Drums
Here it comes
Don’t you wish that life could be as simple
As fish swimming round in a barrel?
When you’ve got the gun
Oh and I run
Here it comes
We’re just two little figures in a soup bowl
Trying to get behind a kind of control
But I wasn’t one
Now here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
And here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
I don’t wanna die
On my own here tonight
But here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
12- Lacuna Coil - Self Deception
Castiel isn't too happy with Dean mocking his idea of finding God. After all he rebelled for him.
Lacuna Coil - Self Deception
I'll never waste another day
searching to find the reason
why did I choose to play this game
this goes too far
I'll take no more
I played the part and took the blame
while you pretend nothing is real
life turned to night as you're asleep
blood flowing down, is this a dream?
Liar, you tempt me
I don't know what to do
no guilt is in my heart
I don't know what to do
I'm not the reason
I'll never waste another day
forever lost
no reason
he never choose to play this game
taken too far out of control
Liar, you tempt me
I don't know what to do
no guilt is in my heart
I don't know what to do
I'm not the reason
13- Staind - So Far Away
And this is the final music. For all the good times Dean and Cas spend together.
This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping
Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
