i hate my over active imagination

[lahttecor]

you know those cancer research adverts with the girl saying her dad had cancer and he hasnt been the same since,and she thought he was gonna die? Well i was just sitting there in bed and that came on and then I thought about something my mum told me early that she said made her cry,she said that at the school she works is this little boy called staurt and today he said to her that he was really scared that his dad mightg die because he has cancer...this little boy is like 9 years old.And then I thought about my Dad,because he smokes and i thought how awful it would be if he died.I cant imagine my parents without each other,seriously my mum was away for a weekend once and it was just so wrong.And my mum would fall apart if my dad wasnt around,and the same for my dad.Those two are like the perfect couple in my eyes,if i could have a marriage half as good I'd believe in god straight away.
I hate thinking,damn this is stupid.But seriously,imagine losing a parent?

I'm going to quit smoking.