back.
Yeah,I know I wasn't here for numerous days but I'm very busy at the moment.Studies again and I'm gonna have hols only by the 19th of december.Seems quite far away but I can't help it-the uni decides of everything,ya know.
Hum,had to do lots of tests for all the subjects.Not doing very well in some like Accounting or Marketing and they're my main subs.Quite annoying but I was never really good with charts and things with comprised lots of maths and all.What isn't surprising is the fact that I'm the best student in English-just normal if you consider the fact that most of my classmates come from french high schools...
Some time ago,I think that I wrote about it-I said that I was a bi and well, had a crush on one of my classmates.I said that at first,I was very uneasy in her presence but now she's a real pal and she sits next to me in class and we talk a lot and learn more about each other day after day.But she still means a lot to me in another way and it bothers me at times but I can control my heart or feelings so,I just accept my situation and try to move on.
Yester we had a really strange conversation and she hinted that maybe she's a bi too and I revealed my feelings to her and she didn't seem to mind and all.She promised not to tell everyone coz gossip can kill,so I think that it'll be O.K.
I'm not going to do anything more than before even if she really happens to be like me-my infatuation is slowly fading away-don't cha know the saying that goes:'charm requires/implies distance'and I get the impression that my feelings are fading with the mystery which is reduced each sec too.I mean,we see each other too much for the supposed luv to last-I always need the unknown side of things and ppl and when this curtain unfolds,it takes most of my interest away.
Aurelie said that she wants to speak to me about it today.We've got to discuss to reach some kind of solution or we'll destroy each other for 2 yrs (the duration of my courses).I guess that we'll see.She said that she's attracted to me too-I don't believe her coz I wonder what she likes in me.I mean,I'm so damn dull most of the time!Anyway,some things can be so complex and unfathomable in this life...
As for my other friends,Skye and Boob inflation Stef,I really miss them.And they're living in the same ctry as me.You can imagine what it'll be already when they'll go abroad...I knew that things would get like that from the day we left school and promised never to forget each other for too long.I mean,we'll never ever forget all that we did together but we're not so close anymore...There's nothing we can do to change this situation,life often decides for us,it's fate and fate only enables me to phone them and talk for 20 minutes every 2 weeks,if I can.
Stef's got new friends at uni and Skye is living on the net and has got millions of friends on the web too.How can I tell them not to meet other ppl? I'm have no right coz I'm doing the same things too.We no longer share a life in common.Never will it be the same again.Snif snif..
My studies are getting too me.I'm asking myself if I've chosen the right career? But then I think abt what I would do if I hadn't chosen Marketing and my mind goes blank.Perhaps Journalism or literature,but then,I'll never really know.And it usually occurs that ppl shift careers when they get other oppprtunities-the future,mu future will tell.
Guess that I went around all the events in my life during these weeks of absence from LJ.Can't think of more to say.I'll just try to write more often.LJ can surely help you to express yourself without ppl objecting or anything.
Special thanks to its creator.
See ya all,
Big hugs to Skye and Stef.I love you guys.
BSH*
Hum,had to do lots of tests for all the subjects.Not doing very well in some like Accounting or Marketing and they're my main subs.Quite annoying but I was never really good with charts and things with comprised lots of maths and all.What isn't surprising is the fact that I'm the best student in English-just normal if you consider the fact that most of my classmates come from french high schools...
Some time ago,I think that I wrote about it-I said that I was a bi and well, had a crush on one of my classmates.I said that at first,I was very uneasy in her presence but now she's a real pal and she sits next to me in class and we talk a lot and learn more about each other day after day.But she still means a lot to me in another way and it bothers me at times but I can control my heart or feelings so,I just accept my situation and try to move on.
Yester we had a really strange conversation and she hinted that maybe she's a bi too and I revealed my feelings to her and she didn't seem to mind and all.She promised not to tell everyone coz gossip can kill,so I think that it'll be O.K.
I'm not going to do anything more than before even if she really happens to be like me-my infatuation is slowly fading away-don't cha know the saying that goes:'charm requires/implies distance'and I get the impression that my feelings are fading with the mystery which is reduced each sec too.I mean,we see each other too much for the supposed luv to last-I always need the unknown side of things and ppl and when this curtain unfolds,it takes most of my interest away.
Aurelie said that she wants to speak to me about it today.We've got to discuss to reach some kind of solution or we'll destroy each other for 2 yrs (the duration of my courses).I guess that we'll see.She said that she's attracted to me too-I don't believe her coz I wonder what she likes in me.I mean,I'm so damn dull most of the time!Anyway,some things can be so complex and unfathomable in this life...
As for my other friends,Skye and Boob inflation Stef,I really miss them.And they're living in the same ctry as me.You can imagine what it'll be already when they'll go abroad...I knew that things would get like that from the day we left school and promised never to forget each other for too long.I mean,we'll never ever forget all that we did together but we're not so close anymore...There's nothing we can do to change this situation,life often decides for us,it's fate and fate only enables me to phone them and talk for 20 minutes every 2 weeks,if I can.
Stef's got new friends at uni and Skye is living on the net and has got millions of friends on the web too.How can I tell them not to meet other ppl? I'm have no right coz I'm doing the same things too.We no longer share a life in common.Never will it be the same again.Snif snif..
My studies are getting too me.I'm asking myself if I've chosen the right career? But then I think abt what I would do if I hadn't chosen Marketing and my mind goes blank.Perhaps Journalism or literature,but then,I'll never really know.And it usually occurs that ppl shift careers when they get other oppprtunities-the future,mu future will tell.
Guess that I went around all the events in my life during these weeks of absence from LJ.Can't think of more to say.I'll just try to write more often.LJ can surely help you to express yourself without ppl objecting or anything.
Special thanks to its creator.
See ya all,
Big hugs to Skye and Stef.I love you guys.
BSH*