Back in NYC
So... I'm back on the East Coast for the weekend. I'm here for Toni-Leigh's service. I really have not processed her death at all. And I'm a bit nervous about Sunday. In the mean time, I'm at Chelsi's house now and will head into the city tomorrow. I'm hoping to meet up with someone for lunch tomorrow (I've invited a few people, but with such short notice and the long weekend, some are out of town, others have plans already, and still others I just haven't heard back from yet.) I may just end up at Gray Dog Cafe solo and maybe get some soup from the place near Bank St and then head over to the park...
I'm tired and am looking forward to seeing friends, but also feeling very numb and hesitant about it all. I flew the red-eye out here and had a middle seat and didn't get to sleep much so sleep deprivation doesn't help. (Next week will be rough!)
Warmth and emptiness. Friends and loneliness. Happy and frustrated. And I've only been here 17 hours.
In closing, I read an email I received from Toni-Leigh last September. I wrote her back but she never replied. I don't know if she ever got it. I feel so sad when I think about her death. I can't believe I "haven't thought about it" so much.
I'm tired and am looking forward to seeing friends, but also feeling very numb and hesitant about it all. I flew the red-eye out here and had a middle seat and didn't get to sleep much so sleep deprivation doesn't help. (Next week will be rough!)
Warmth and emptiness. Friends and loneliness. Happy and frustrated. And I've only been here 17 hours.
In closing, I read an email I received from Toni-Leigh last September. I wrote her back but she never replied. I don't know if she ever got it. I feel so sad when I think about her death. I can't believe I "haven't thought about it" so much.