Day of Days
So today was meant to be my third wedding anniversary. Where better to post something than in this little forgotten corner of the internet that I haven't accessed for aeons?
I wanted B to be romantic, that in spite of him upsetting me that there would be one grand gesture that would make me feel like everything we've been through has been in fact positive and that we can still be together. It's times like these that I truly dislike being a romantic and wanting that in my life. It is completely selfish, but I really dislike having to bring romance into my life. I tried that while we were together, he didn't see it or seem to care.......... I think I'm most upset because I hoped that he would..... something, Anything! To try and make today easier not only for himself but also for me. But, lo and behold, here I am in my room hiding from the world escaping from the invisible pity that I probably made up in my head so that I wouldn't have to see anyone...
Oh wow, as I dribble on I see that, yes I am in pain, and I am hiding away from what I think that people are thinking about me or what they would say and see that I am ridiculous. I think I'm going to go for a run.
I wanted B to be romantic, that in spite of him upsetting me that there would be one grand gesture that would make me feel like everything we've been through has been in fact positive and that we can still be together. It's times like these that I truly dislike being a romantic and wanting that in my life. It is completely selfish, but I really dislike having to bring romance into my life. I tried that while we were together, he didn't see it or seem to care.......... I think I'm most upset because I hoped that he would..... something, Anything! To try and make today easier not only for himself but also for me. But, lo and behold, here I am in my room hiding from the world escaping from the invisible pity that I probably made up in my head so that I wouldn't have to see anyone...
Oh wow, as I dribble on I see that, yes I am in pain, and I am hiding away from what I think that people are thinking about me or what they would say and see that I am ridiculous. I think I'm going to go for a run.