sickly and weak
eeeek! im sick. havent been sick in awhile, but its still not welcome. i hate feeling icky and down. ack i sound like boy! and i have this disgusting veteran smokers cough. it sounds really bad coming from such a tiny person. lol its like im trying to hack up a lung. and the worst part is i have to go to work today. AT 3!!! that means no time for a nap and no time to eat until like 7. which is break time. then its back home at 9. and off to study. but yea right i dont see the studying happening lol. i think ive been doing pretty good so far. math was actually relatively simple. and comnig from me....that should mean a lot! but still, i feel sick and gross. i cant smell, and that part doesnt bother me, bradock doesnt smell that nice anyway. ^_^
hmm yesterday was weird. 2 wierd things happened. but im only gonna talk about one. lol turns out Damian goes to fergusen. and he was at the mcdonalds. and i saw him. and well......it was wierd. then i saw him again at dolphin. which totally creeped me the fuck out. i wasnt planning on ever seeing him again. it feels so wierd to be around him after like you know i dont know...we got close i guess you can say? but man he was so chill about it, just talking and stuff. maybe hes just really good at hiding an awkward feeling. i hope i did good to. lol but honestly, i was dying inside. lol all i could think of were my drunk moments in the keys with him....-_- oh boy. too bad i only remember a few of them. good riddence i guess. but man TWICE IN ONE DAY! he was my summer fling, and after the summer well you know how that goes, your not supposed to see your fling anymore. thats why it was a one time thing!!!! jesus christ wait till i tell lichy. shes gonna have a fit! lol and the worst part was, we actually carried out a conversation! he asked me about Albert. and i instantly got sad. i filled him in on the few things he didnt know, but apparently (and not surprisingly) everyone at the keys already knows. i wonder who else was a part of it (sammy and aldo no doubt, but then again i dont doubt alex either). and after that i started thinking about the keys. and i told damian how i wasnt planning on going back. he gave me that "oh man dont do that" face. and for some reason it broke my heart. at that moment i realzed how badly i missed my drunken friends. i miss palito and josh and david and collie. i miss lili and even miss mickey...and i saw him yesterday too. i miss everyone. i miss free booze, i miss the yucky mangrove water, i miss the ocean air, i miss the lovely jet boat i crashed, i miss drinking till 5 in the morning, i miss P.H.E.......and for sure i miss falling head first off the boat. i miss throwing up and not remembering. i miss lili trying to fly. i miss palito biting me 7 times. i miss lichy grabbing davids dick. i miss drinking with albert. i miss the awesome conversations with rene. and i miss being piss drunk then tripping over a pseedbump and saying i pure laughter "who the fuck put that there!" and i miss boat hopping to streal some beer. damn.....who am i kidding? of course im going back lol. only when alex isnt there lol
wow it was nice to bring back all those memories. although so many terrible things happened, it doesnt cancel out the beautiful and loving people i met. i created an entirely different family, and i love them all. i learned alot from them. they learned the wonders of my ipod, and they taught me that rap isnt all that bad. lol. i learned all their wierd ass lingo and shit. although i may have forgotten a few. i learned how to set off my own fire works without killing myself....although i had to learn through trial and error. damn those were the days. and ill never forget runnign around through the bushes throwin fire works at the police cars after they arrested poor geo. and silly stringing sammys car. then when we got all HxC and had fire works fights. we had extra fire works for days after the 4th of july lol. im already craving some snappers. ^_^
hmm yesterday was weird. 2 wierd things happened. but im only gonna talk about one. lol turns out Damian goes to fergusen. and he was at the mcdonalds. and i saw him. and well......it was wierd. then i saw him again at dolphin. which totally creeped me the fuck out. i wasnt planning on ever seeing him again. it feels so wierd to be around him after like you know i dont know...we got close i guess you can say? but man he was so chill about it, just talking and stuff. maybe hes just really good at hiding an awkward feeling. i hope i did good to. lol but honestly, i was dying inside. lol all i could think of were my drunk moments in the keys with him....-_- oh boy. too bad i only remember a few of them. good riddence i guess. but man TWICE IN ONE DAY! he was my summer fling, and after the summer well you know how that goes, your not supposed to see your fling anymore. thats why it was a one time thing!!!! jesus christ wait till i tell lichy. shes gonna have a fit! lol and the worst part was, we actually carried out a conversation! he asked me about Albert. and i instantly got sad. i filled him in on the few things he didnt know, but apparently (and not surprisingly) everyone at the keys already knows. i wonder who else was a part of it (sammy and aldo no doubt, but then again i dont doubt alex either). and after that i started thinking about the keys. and i told damian how i wasnt planning on going back. he gave me that "oh man dont do that" face. and for some reason it broke my heart. at that moment i realzed how badly i missed my drunken friends. i miss palito and josh and david and collie. i miss lili and even miss mickey...and i saw him yesterday too. i miss everyone. i miss free booze, i miss the yucky mangrove water, i miss the ocean air, i miss the lovely jet boat i crashed, i miss drinking till 5 in the morning, i miss P.H.E.......and for sure i miss falling head first off the boat. i miss throwing up and not remembering. i miss lili trying to fly. i miss palito biting me 7 times. i miss lichy grabbing davids dick. i miss drinking with albert. i miss the awesome conversations with rene. and i miss being piss drunk then tripping over a pseedbump and saying i pure laughter "who the fuck put that there!" and i miss boat hopping to streal some beer. damn.....who am i kidding? of course im going back lol. only when alex isnt there lol
wow it was nice to bring back all those memories. although so many terrible things happened, it doesnt cancel out the beautiful and loving people i met. i created an entirely different family, and i love them all. i learned alot from them. they learned the wonders of my ipod, and they taught me that rap isnt all that bad. lol. i learned all their wierd ass lingo and shit. although i may have forgotten a few. i learned how to set off my own fire works without killing myself....although i had to learn through trial and error. damn those were the days. and ill never forget runnign around through the bushes throwin fire works at the police cars after they arrested poor geo. and silly stringing sammys car. then when we got all HxC and had fire works fights. we had extra fire works for days after the 4th of july lol. im already craving some snappers. ^_^