Amazing
Ha so much of me hates to post this kind of stuff for fear of jinxing what I have going... but this feels right. I'm falling in love. I haven't said it yet to him and I'm proud of myself for that... but I find myself thinking it all the time. It's not like a conscience thing either. He'll say something funny or so like me and I look at him and there it is. That warm love feeling. He's everything I've ever wanted in a man. The man I could see myself marrying. He's stable, secure, not crazy haha... he wants to build a yurt with me... kayak to some secluded islands near the San Juans... backpack in Peru... And for once, I know that we could do these things. The world is actually in reach and we could make these things happen. They aren't just dreams. They are things we will do in our life. I'll be living LIFE with a person I love. It's so amazing. This is all I've ever wanted and it's crazy/awesome to think... I've found it. I've ACTUALLY found it.