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[laffietaffie]

Why do you treat me like you do? I know it's only because of the situation that we are in. There is no other possible explanation. You pretend to have this amazing emotion for me in your heart, but it doesn't exist at all. It might have once before, but whatever that feeling prevoked is gone now. All that you have left is the false feelings that disintegrate each and every day. And as you nourish them with fake love, they worsen and only grow into what you want me to believe. Well, I'll admit that I am definitely not the brightest crayon in the box, but I do see what you are trying to do. And you cannot sharpen the tip of my crayon into useless shavings. It just won't work because I cannot let it happen. And sometimes, you are only trying to protect me, but you have to let me live my own life and make my own decisions. I need to make my own mistakes and celebrate my own joy. The lies disappointment shame are over. Back to reality here

I have one thing, yet lack the component. I never thought somebody could have both...until now. It's not fucking fair