I am going insane
I was going insane this morning and I will probably go insane later tonight. I don't mean this in a good way. :( Argh! Who doesn't love a 3 day weekend, right? But I'm sometimes left with the feeling that my brain has been wiped clean and that I have no bloody idea how to do my job. So I start going over things in my head. And I, of course, forget minor shit because I do it automatically now. I don't have to think about whether certain exams need prep or where what schedule goes. I don't even have to remember how the fuck to get to Babies from Milstein, down into PH, and back again. I could do it with my eyes clothes! But anxiety doesn't listen to sense. It's the reason I was doped up and still couldn't sleep last night. Alas, with the occassional faulter, things when swimmingly. I'm good at my job and I certainly enjoy it but I don't ever think I'll be the best I can be; my brain farts too much, lol. My memory is better even though it's still swiss-cheese.
I'm worried about a complete regression, though, and that's why I can't fucking wait until Spring/Summer. Sanity...ok, my version of it, shall return!
I forgot that House was on last night instead of tonight and nearly slit my wrists, lol. I'm actually pretty po'd about it but, what are you gonna do? >_> *searches for downloads* Goddamned you, American Idol! Speaking of which! That last girl, contestant number 12? omfg, can you say hott?!?! She's fucking adorable, has a killer voice and, ahem, did you check out that body?!?! *fans self* Pardon my inner lesbian, peeps. :-P
You don't want to know how much money I'm spending to go to Finland for RuisRock. You really don't. >_< Just...argh, my brain hurts, lol. And then for Tavastia?!?! I'm crazy. But life is for the living so, I'm gonna live. *shrug* I'll be poor though...lmao.
I'm worried about a complete regression, though, and that's why I can't fucking wait until Spring/Summer. Sanity...ok, my version of it, shall return!
I forgot that House was on last night instead of tonight and nearly slit my wrists, lol. I'm actually pretty po'd about it but, what are you gonna do? >_> *searches for downloads* Goddamned you, American Idol! Speaking of which! That last girl, contestant number 12? omfg, can you say hott?!?! She's fucking adorable, has a killer voice and, ahem, did you check out that body?!?! *fans self* Pardon my inner lesbian, peeps. :-P
You don't want to know how much money I'm spending to go to Finland for RuisRock. You really don't. >_< Just...argh, my brain hurts, lol. And then for Tavastia?!?! I'm crazy. But life is for the living so, I'm gonna live. *shrug* I'll be poor though...lmao.