another year
I don't know if anyone else has something that you look forward to all year every year, there's something specific that is very meaningful for me that happens every year and it's something that either brings me an ultimate joy and relief or can make me feel so desolate and alone. I don't know what to do lately because this is all I can think about, I just want it to happen with the person I care about most and yet it's not ever going to, that's basically what I was told. It hurts so much, I want to bargain and plead but at the same time I don't want them to do something they really don't want to do, It makes me feel like I'm not enough.