the sound you hear is the sound of my impostor syndrome shattering to bits

[laeria]

I mean, I've no doubt it will reassemble itself soonish, but at the moment UNI IS WONDERFUL, MY SHORT STUPID RESEARCH PAPER IS WONDERFUL and I AM EVEN MORE WONDERFUL, so, to celebrate that, let's do that meme!

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[laeria]

Eugh, I'm so sorry about the fuzzy-headedness! It is a deeply annoying state to be in, and it tends to inevitably come with November for me. (I hate November so much. I like autumn, inevitable mood-swings and rheuma and all, because it just feels so dynamic and kind of epic, with all the leaves. But there's no more trees or colours in November, and there's no snow yet either, and in conclusion, blech.)

[Question order re-arranged because I like to end my comments on a positive note rather than panicky.]

24. My future plans.
Omg um. Erk. Well, there is going to be money, there may be some sort of emigration, there might be PhDs, there is probably going to be some angst and hopefully, at some point, a German Shepherd and/or a spouse.

43. What's currently worrying me the most.
The short stupid research paper mentioned above is going to have to presented in front of people on Saturday, and I've procrastinated it to a point of ludicrousness, so, that's a pretty big black soul-sucky point of vast panic atm. I don't have so much issue with Public Speaking, actually, but there are gonna be questions, and I freeze and melt down when someone cross-examines me for some reason.

09. A description of my best friend.
She has read more books than I ever will. She is clever about abstracted stuff and practical stuff and delights in knowledge for its own sake and has basically infallible taste. She's tolerant and patient and sometimes she snarks out and that delights me too, because she does snark amazingly well too.

Basically, meeting her was probably my biggest serendipity of my life. I was 16 and kind of obnoxious and crass. She was patient and deeply intriguing and also kind of randomly there. And then... seven years later, she's among the most important people in my life. Some of our interest diverged, some converged, and, I don't know, one day when we're dead and famous someone should publish it, because it's JUST THAT AWESOME a friendship.