Hmmm.
Well, I know I worried cesia with my rather...vague post earlier that I'm not going to bother deleting xD As well as others from my other post before that and subsequent comments. But I was feeling kind of...
Not...happy? Not sad, not emo, not angst, just...apathetic? IDK I was just in one of those weird moods last night and it kind of continued through the morning when I woke up (6:30 early omfg o_o)
But now, after pretty much sleeping most of the day yesterday and waking up this morning and poking at my paper and cuddling with the parents (hadn't done that in a while) I...feel a bit better.
This morning it looked all gloomy which kind of reflected my mood, but now it's brightening up. As my mood is. My paper is still far from finished (I restarted it several times :|) and it will be impossible for me to turn it in BEFORE Monday. But I'm going to take it slow, relax, let my mind calm the fuck down and work at my pace. I will send it at the latest late tomorrow with deep regrets to my professor. But I'll turn it in and I'll have an incomplete for the end of the term but that'll be changed when she can change grades again. That's fine. I've come to accept it.
My brain needed a major reset after this past week. Hell. It still kind of does. Today I will force myself to be slow and focus on the paper.
...After church (well and before, but I only have like half an hour xD which ironically I'm feeling a bit better about going to. Usually I'm apathetic but. ...Well I still kinna am but less so? IDK xD;).
But yeah. My brain had been firing those little nerves at 100000 mp/s (yes, miles per second) and. That wasn't good. It was being super ADD and I finally kind of crashed last night. And damn did I need that sleep. My mom actually shooed me to bed at around 7 when I had fallen asleep while resting on her lap. I did wake up again like. Way later (10? 11?) and was on for a bit but then I slept again at around 2ish. That was when I started feeling bleh and semi-angsty for no real reasons. Well I did have reasons but nothing...that needs to be talked about, just "me" things.
So yesterday I was awake for about. 8 hours total. xD; I'm not counting the time I was awake before actually sleeping the night before.
I feel a bit refreshed now. Watch me start getting all "alskdjfdslkfj" as I continue to work on paper but. Oh well. For the moment I'm going to enjoy this bit of calm that's settled over me ^^;
Sorry for worrying anyone, I guess I'm kind of used to putting on the "Everything is fine :D" face or instead go into the Tamaki "SPAZZ" mode to make it seem more silly than serious that when things finally pile on that makes me crack it, it makes me feel bad. Moreso because I don't want anyone to worry about stupid little things like this. Really, there's nothing to worry about. People have their own worries and problems to focus on so :O Anyway, enough of this rambling shizz. Off to write...something about my paper ^^;
♥
Not...happy? Not sad, not emo, not angst, just...apathetic? IDK I was just in one of those weird moods last night and it kind of continued through the morning when I woke up (6:30 early omfg o_o)
But now, after pretty much sleeping most of the day yesterday and waking up this morning and poking at my paper and cuddling with the parents (hadn't done that in a while) I...feel a bit better.
This morning it looked all gloomy which kind of reflected my mood, but now it's brightening up. As my mood is. My paper is still far from finished (I restarted it several times :|) and it will be impossible for me to turn it in BEFORE Monday. But I'm going to take it slow, relax, let my mind calm the fuck down and work at my pace. I will send it at the latest late tomorrow with deep regrets to my professor. But I'll turn it in and I'll have an incomplete for the end of the term but that'll be changed when she can change grades again. That's fine. I've come to accept it.
My brain needed a major reset after this past week. Hell. It still kind of does. Today I will force myself to be slow and focus on the paper.
...After church (well and before, but I only have like half an hour xD which ironically I'm feeling a bit better about going to. Usually I'm apathetic but. ...Well I still kinna am but less so? IDK xD;).
But yeah. My brain had been firing those little nerves at 100000 mp/s (yes, miles per second) and. That wasn't good. It was being super ADD and I finally kind of crashed last night. And damn did I need that sleep. My mom actually shooed me to bed at around 7 when I had fallen asleep while resting on her lap. I did wake up again like. Way later (10? 11?) and was on for a bit but then I slept again at around 2ish. That was when I started feeling bleh and semi-angsty for no real reasons. Well I did have reasons but nothing...that needs to be talked about, just "me" things.
So yesterday I was awake for about. 8 hours total. xD; I'm not counting the time I was awake before actually sleeping the night before.
I feel a bit refreshed now. Watch me start getting all "alskdjfdslkfj" as I continue to work on paper but. Oh well. For the moment I'm going to enjoy this bit of calm that's settled over me ^^;
Sorry for worrying anyone, I guess I'm kind of used to putting on the "Everything is fine :D" face or instead go into the Tamaki "SPAZZ" mode to make it seem more silly than serious that when things finally pile on that makes me crack it, it makes me feel bad. Moreso because I don't want anyone to worry about stupid little things like this. Really, there's nothing to worry about. People have their own worries and problems to focus on so :O Anyway, enough of this rambling shizz. Off to write...something about my paper ^^;
♥