Hey Arnold and psychology
You remember those old Nickelodeon cartoons? You remember Hey Arnold? Well I do. I found a couple episodes of it online and I’ve loved watching them and getting in touch with my childhood and better shows than we normally see nowadays.
You remember Helga, the blonde girl who was obsessed with him? She was/is my favorite character on the show. You remember the episode where Helga doesn’t wanna be obsessed with Arnold so she buys an “out-of-love” potion? After she stops loving Arnold, she’s bored. She has no emotion and no inspiration.
That’s kinda how I feel right now. I do most of the time over breaks but it seems like more this time. I don’t have a crush on anyone so I don’t know what to do with myself. Maybe it’s cause of my lack of writing. A majority of the songs I write are about guys I like but now there’s no one to preoccupy my time, it’s hurting my songs. Sure, now I’m finding other things to write about but I’m mostly going nowhere. A bunch of the new songs I’m writing now are about how much I wanna write good songs. I’ve always written about my emotions and now… I’m not feeling much of anything.
To use the words of Helga Pataki, Maybe I need my obsession. I need to feel longing and passion and be all mad and mixed up all the time. Maybe I need “ice cream” to love! To hate! To inspire me!
Melodramatic but true.