conserning my 17th b-day what to do

[ladyyuiseiryuu]

hey ne of u losers actualy think i exist well exept for megean cause she saw me yesterday neway i feel like such an outcast wtf is going on im so confused about whos still alive and such. Hey like as a 5 months in advance who wants to hang out for my b-day cause this year was such a drag like everone had something to do and i dont blame them since after all i did plan it like only a week before my b-day well im thinking about hanging at the movies and seeing whatever is good at the time or something unless neone has a better idea after all im not a good planner so if someone wants to help me out here i kno that Laureen will probably be willing to help me out question is who to invite after all almost all of my friends live in friggin fort lauderdale after all i do go to fort lauderdale high school hey i actually have a reason to go now and its not for the quality or the education or any bullcrap like that and only two people knon what im talking about o by the way my b-day is nov 18 "hmm i wonder which of my fort lauderdale friends can make it probably none but maybe one if im lucky and a couple of my new friend from this year that live in coral springs could probably make it to but who knos we'll see right after all theres still a while to wait but i actually want to be able to do something for the first time in like three years u kno and this will probably be read by like no one and if they do read it no one will comment oi am i that unloved or disliked :sigh: i feel so shitty now that i think about all the friends ive lost in just two years 6 to be exact its sad really and to think im gonna have to start all over when i go to college hey ya'll might forget me but ill never forget u especially like a couple of friends from fort lauderdale high and the ol' 8th grade gang Me, megean, tess, laureen, jen, leslie, jared,robert keisa,a couple other people that i cant remeber wow this lj is sad its like im friggin writting my will or something like im dying or something u kno its like im on my deathbed and im writing my final memories.lol lmao its funny when u think about it well hope this reaches somebody u kno and almost everbody that can read this has my phone number and can comment on it o by the way there one more thing everbody that calls my cell phone its off limits for like a month cause i went $40 over my limit so all it can be used for is emergency calls or a phone book so its pretty useless now ok im finished......................................................................................................................................................................................
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