Never Enough
Well....I haven't posted here in almost forever..but i felt this would be the best place to write some things going through my head at the moment...Even if no one reads it..I'll be happy to just let it out...
I've been going back to the gym again...I'm back into my I'll never be good enough mode..because honestly I doubt I really ever will be satisfied with what I see in the mirror..nor will people around me be fully satisfied with what I look like or who I am...at least that's how I feel...
So I go to the gym every single morning..except on the weekends and that's only because I go out on the weekend and I'm too beat to wake up to go to the gym...they also have different hours on the weekend so I don't want to bother going later in the day...when it might be busy..I enjoy going when hardly anyone is in there..
Well now I'm just starting to ramble...
A lot has happened since the last time I wrote in this journal...way too much to write..I've had a failed relationship..had a few drinking binges..gained a lot of weight..lost a little weight..but luckily I've still held the same job this entire time..we all know my 3 year rule. That also counts for jobs!
Well I know I'll never be enough...but oh well...I can only be me...take it or fuck you..
I've been going back to the gym again...I'm back into my I'll never be good enough mode..because honestly I doubt I really ever will be satisfied with what I see in the mirror..nor will people around me be fully satisfied with what I look like or who I am...at least that's how I feel...
So I go to the gym every single morning..except on the weekends and that's only because I go out on the weekend and I'm too beat to wake up to go to the gym...they also have different hours on the weekend so I don't want to bother going later in the day...when it might be busy..I enjoy going when hardly anyone is in there..
Well now I'm just starting to ramble...
A lot has happened since the last time I wrote in this journal...way too much to write..I've had a failed relationship..had a few drinking binges..gained a lot of weight..lost a little weight..but luckily I've still held the same job this entire time..we all know my 3 year rule. That also counts for jobs!
Well I know I'll never be enough...but oh well...I can only be me...take it or fuck you..