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i hate how art imitates life. i hate that i feel like izzy, knowing i should run, but wanting to run towards someone more than running away from everything.
i hate that i can't be strong and save my own heart when i know i should, just because i watched an emotional episode of a stupid show.
i hate shepard for asking what that meant. and for following her.
i hate denny for dying.
i hate alex for redeeming himself.
and i hate that i feel the most sorry for addison.
i hate hating derek for not having perspective, and yet i recognize that i can't even find it myself.
i hate wine. i hate cigarettes.
and i am going to hate the rest of this week.
i hate that i can't be strong and save my own heart when i know i should, just because i watched an emotional episode of a stupid show.
i hate shepard for asking what that meant. and for following her.
i hate denny for dying.
i hate alex for redeeming himself.
and i hate that i feel the most sorry for addison.
i hate hating derek for not having perspective, and yet i recognize that i can't even find it myself.
i hate wine. i hate cigarettes.
and i am going to hate the rest of this week.