CHILDHOOD ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED
NO ONE IS HERE ANYMORE BUT I NEED TO YELL IN LONG FORMAT SO HERE WE ARE AGAIN WHAT DECADE IS THIS
SO
last week we went for team christmas lunch and it was mostly lame but our director mentioned he and his wife got tickets to a star wars symphony concert and my head whipped around fast i cricked my neck
STAR WARS
SYMPHONY
CONCERT
AKA SOMETHING I HAVE WANTED TO DO FOR LITERALLY TWENTY FIVE YEARS OH MY GOD I AM OLD
they saw my crazy eyes and said maybe there are still tickets? and they might be cheap since it's getting close to the date?
somehow i didn't actually check for tickets for a couple days cuz my head is permanently full of advent ineffable husbands fluff but then i did and BOUGHT ONE OH MY GOD HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO ME it was a little pricey but LITERAL CHILDHOOD DREAM COME TRUE
i predicted many many tears because 1) HAVE YOU MET ME and 2) i have cried at least a bit every single day of december because ADVENT INEFFABLE HUSBANDS FLUFF and then stupidly listened to muse on the way to the concert which almost leaves me emotionally compromised so let us just say i started crying from the VERY FIRST NOTE and basically didn't stop for the next two and a half hours
poor izzy had to deal with my incoherent whatsapp messages which i shall now recreate because it's been two days and i'm still major starry eyes over the whole thing
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I. DUEL OF THE FATES
they STARTED WITH THIS and there was ZERO PREAMBLE just CHORAL SANSKRIT IN YOUR FACE with NO TIME TO PREPARE i had the most epic chills ive ever felt and serious tears and i couldn't keep my eyes open because ENORMOUS SWELL OF FEELINGS oh my god i can't even properly describe the experience i was suddenly fourteen again during what is now referred to as The Summer of Star Wars because i saw the phantom menace in theatres NINE TIMES despite it being SERIOUSLY TERRIBLE which i wouldn't/couldn't admit for many years and mel was my enabler and everything was glorious and i got every single one of my friends obsessed with duel of the fates because HAVE YOU HEARD IT so yeah SERIOUSLY MEANINGFUL SONG RIGHT HERE i could write an entire essay on how much it means to me but ROLLING RIGHT ALONG TO:
II. ANAKIN'S THEME
AND THE TEARS CONTINUED god the music is utterly wasted on that terrible terrible movie i'm pretty sure we had the piano music for tpm and i made my mum play this once and it had so many accidentals that she refused to ever play it again i love how john williams's style is to pick a key and then refuse to stick to it for more than five seconds what a legend ALSO THE CONDUCTOR DID THE VADER BREATHING AT THE END I THOUGHT I'D IMAGINED IT BUT THEN HE WAS ALL LOL I COULDN'T RESIST I LOVE THIS GUY
III. THE FLAG PARADE
STILL CRYING BECAUSE HOLY SHIT this has to be the most unequal music to scene pairing known to man like it's SO FUCKING GOOD and the scene is just before the fucking podrace and ends with skinless threepio holding anakin's flag which was never even introduced as a thing just LOL LOOK FLAG PARADE IT'S SO MEANINGFUL LISTEN TO THIS EPIC MARCH and then it's just a beer fart of a scene because PODRACING NO ONE CARES ABOUT PODRACING LUCAS STOP TRYING TO MAKE IT A THING but the conductor was all omg this is the best march he's ever written except for every single other march he wrote for star wars he is such a john williams fanboy he and i need to be friends
IV. ACROSS THE STARS
ACROSS
THE
FUCKING
STARS
SO
MUCH
CRYING
the conductor read some notes that john williams wrote on this piece and it's HILARIOUS cuz the poor guy is so earnestly talking about anakin and padme's ILLICIT FORBIDDEN BEAUTIFUL LOVE AFFAIR and it's just the worst goddamn movie cuz lucas is a HACK and can't write anything worth shit and designed that fucking awful BLACK LEATHER BANDAGE DRESS that poor natalie portman has to wear while hayden christiansen somehow gets through WHEN IM AROUND YOU I CAN'T BREATHE YOU ARE IN MY VERY SOUL TORMENTING ME and doesn't break down for his lost career and padme is all I CAN'T BE A SENATOR AND HAVE A BOYFRIEND BECAUSE REASONS but if nothing else this appallingly terrible movie gave us this epic epic song that i will love til i die and continue to obsess over the tricky goddamn rhythm and that epic fucking switch from 3/4 to 4/4 time BABY MUSIC NERD BEFFY SHALL YELL ABOUT THIS UNTIL THE END OF TIME
V. BATTLE OF THE HEROES
AUGH THE CHOIR THE CHOIR I CAN'T DEAL WITH THE CHOIR i hardly ever listen to the rots soundtrack because it's a terrible horrible movie that hurts and yet is so bad you can't take it seriously and that's some serious cognitive dissonance and we hates it precious but AUGH THIS PERFORMANCE NEARLY KILLED ME i can't handle live choral especially set against the gayest most extra lightsaber battle of all time on the fucking volcano planet cuz that's totally a thing and also i was all ROMANCE OF THE JEDI because i am nothing if not predictable and TOO MANY FEELINGS AT ONCE and then two of the trumpets pulled out their lightsabers and had a mini duel still sitting in their chairs THESE GODDAMN NERDS I LOVE THESE PEOPLE also i forgot to mention the director of the choir was in full rots obiwan regalia and there were a couple other jedi and a PRINCESS BUNHEAD LEIA and later i noticed one of the flautists had big leia buns and suddenly i was all THAT COULD HAVE BEEN ME baby flautist beffy was so fucking happy BUT STILL CRYING BECAUSE AUGH THIS SONG
VI. THE ADVENTURES OF HAN SOLO
AKA JUNK FROM SOLO THE MOVIE THAT DOESN'T EXIST NOPE IT'S NOT CANON I REFUSE
that about sums it up the conductor was all this is the only music john williams wrote for this trash heap movie and it's great but i can't divorce it from how much i hate solo and it was super unemotive anyway and you can tell he didn't put any real feeling into it WHATEVER MOVING ON THERE WERE NO TEARS WHICH IS GOOD BECAUSE
BECAUSE NEXT
NEXT
VII: JYN ERSO AND HOPE SUITE
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALFBUCQPOI7ETYBQ;LIUTB;VYYGBVJDHBALHFJLQAHQ
this is actually beffy's ghost speaking because this actually slayed me i am dead dead dead lying on the floor of the fucking winspear centre for the rest of eternity because ROGUE FUCKING ONE AND MICHAEL GIACCHINO AND THEY BROUGHT THE CHOIR IN AT THE VERY END AND OH MY GOD I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS TWO DAYS LATER MUCH LESS DURING THE ACTUAL PERFORMANCE
this is where silent tears almost turned into ugly crying because YOU CAN'T JUST WHIP OUT THE ROGUE ONE SOUNDTRACK EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WAS COMING AND HAD DAYS TO PREPARE BUT OHMY GOD I SHAN'T EVER DEAL and the conductor told us michael fucking giacchino wrote the score in FIVE WEEKS??????????????????????? and it's the most DEVASTATING SCORE like he and henry jackman are never allowed to collaborate cuz the fucking world will explode or at least MY world will explode holy shit the conductor was saying how the score was different not just because of the composer but because you basically knew going into the story that EVERYONE DIES and that made the whole HOPE aspect hurt that much more so he really let us have it in the music THANKS A LOT GIACCHINO YOU ASSHOLE
so if you're keeping track i've now been crying for an hour minus the four minutes from solo because ugh and i thought the intermission was next which AUGH NO I NEED TO STOP WEEPING SO NO ONE ASKS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG AND I HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF WHICH HAHAHAHAHA NOPE I'VE BEEN YELLING FOR 1300 WORDS SO FAR AND WE'RE ONLY HALFWAY DONE but then i had a chance to recover a bit but only a bit BECAUSE
VIII: MAIN THEME PLUS ANH OPENING AND CLOSING CREDITS
LOL CONFESSION I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT THE MAIN THEME LIKE IT'S FINE?? AND ICONIC AS FUCK AND I APPRECIATE THAT BUT LIKE WHATEVER WHERE'S THE REAL MUSIC BUT THEN THE CLOSING CREDITS I LOVE SO FUCKING MUCH SO THERE WERE STILL A FEW TEARS BUT NO MORE UGLY CRYING THANK FUCK
IX. HERE THEY COME
SO FUCKING GOOD I LOVE THIS BIT plus it comes right after leia giving luke a comfort blanket after obiwan's death which is just PEAK ADORABLE SIBLINGNESS EVEN IF THEY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT YET also i may not have been crying at that point??? i forget??? but then THE TEARS RETURNED BECAUSE OH MY GOD
X. PRINCESS LEIA'S THEME
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
AND THEN THE CONDUCTOR TALKED ABOUT CARRIE FISHER BEING IMPORTANT AND ICONIC AND THE ROLES FOR WOMEN IN STAR WARS AND HOW IT LED TO REY AND FUCKING HELL SO MANY CREYS also lol remember when i thought this would make a great song to walk down the aisle to AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA BABY BEFFY IS CLEARLY A GENIUS
XI. THE IMPERIAL MARCH
BOMBOMBOMBOMBABOMBOMBABOM
istg the whole place wanted to sing along this kid came RUSHING IN from the side door so he didn't miss it and it was GRAND the brass section must have had SO MUCH FUN this whole concert but especially this goddamn john williams like his marching band aesthetic
XII. YODA'S THEME
yeah lol i don't really care about this either i actually kind of seriously hate yoda like ugh people are always ESB IS THE GREATEST MOVIE IN THE ETERNAL HISTORY OF MOVIES and i counter that with ROTJ OR BUST BITCHES i also hate threepio which is apparently also sacrilege this is why i don't get along with male nerds for the most part cuz they don't care about THEMES AND SHIT which is all i care about ahaha ANYWAY IT'S A PRETTY SONG BUT I MOSTLY DON'T CARE MOVING ON
XIII. PARADE OF THE EWOKS
still in the LOL I DON'T CARE GET TO LUKE AND LEIA BUT ALSO DON'T CUZ I'LL HAVE A GODDAMN EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN (SPOILER ALERT) but noteworthy because TOY PIANO AND TUNED COWBELLS the percussionists had a blast with this one it was adorable BUT THEN
THEN
XIV. LUKE AND LEIA
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKx2
CUE THE UGLY CRYING OH MY GOD YOU DON'T JUST CASUALLY BREAK OUT LUKE AND LEIA ESPECIALLY AFTER THE LAST JEDI I SHAN'T EVER FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT and of course the masochistic sensation seeking part of me was all NOW PLAY BROTHER AND SISTER, FATHER AND SON SO I MAY EMBARRASS MYSELF BY DRAMATICALLY THROWING MYSELF FROM THE BALCONY IN ATTEMPT TO EXPRESS THE DEPTH OF MY FEELINGS oh my god if there is ever one of those complete rotj concerts i will not be able to attend without a straightjacket i can't even listen to most of the soundtrack unless im home alone so i may weep in peace DAMN YOU JOHN WILLIAMS WHY YOU GOTTA BE THIS WAY
XV. MARCH OF THE RESISTANCE
and then we go from DRAMATIC BREAKDOWN MUSIC to HOLY SHIT MOST EPIC MARCH OF ALL TIME and i continued crying but also grinned like an idiot because POE HAS SOME GODDAMN SWAGGER AND THIS IS HIS SONG and the conductor was nerding out because this was written as a fugue which has ridic constraints to it and john williams is all LOL PERFECT LETS DO IT and i wanted to dance in my tight squeezy chair like an idiot but refrained for the poor people beside me who thankfully did not notice my 150 minute long mental breakdown BLESS YOU PEOPLE
XVI. REY'S THEME
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH REY REY MY LOVE REEEEEEEEEEY it's the most beautiful theme augh i love her and it so much how the fuck is episode ix still five days away GIVE IT TO ME GODDAMMIT and the conductor brought up WOMEN IN STAR WARS again and told this adorable story about john williams recording the score and noticing this young woman sitting in the corner by herself and was all uh can i help you and it was DAISY FUCKING RIDLEY who sneaked in just to sit and experience the magic god i love her so much REY REY MY HEART REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY
XVII. THE REBELLION IS REBORN
WHAT A SONG TO END ON OH MY GOD I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SO MANY PEOPLE HATE THE LAST JEDI IT'S FUCKING BRILLIANT AND HEARTFELT AND SO FUCKING EPIC AND GOOD OH MY GOD of course we had to end on yet another badass march JOHN WILLIAMS YOU BRILLIANT ASSHOLE I LOVE YOU FOREVER NOT STOP TORMENTING ME
AND THEN IT WAS OVER AND WE STOOD AND CLAPPED AND WHOOPED AND SCREAMED AND THEN THEY CAME BACK FOR
XVIII. THE THRONE ROOM AND END CREDITS
WHICH
OH MY GOD
REMEMBER WHEN MEL AND I WATCHED THIS SCENE ON REPEAT FOR AN ENTIRE SUMMER AND HAD A STUPID INJOKE FOR EVERY FRAME WE WERE THE WEIRDEST NERDIEST CHILDREN POOR CHARI SOMEHOW DIDN'T TAKE THE TAPE AWAY FROM US DESPITE THIS
AND THEN THAT WAS ACTUALLY REALLY THE END AND I WAS EXHAUSTED BUT ALSO WANTED IT TO GO ON FOR HOURS
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so even during the concert i was trying to decide what to say on monday when jakub asked me how i liked the concert cuz we like similar things but in VERY DIFFERENT WAYS (he is such a DUDE ohmygod) and i was all okay don't mention the weeping don't mention the childhood dream of playing for the LSO don't mention your rabid rampant feels that you don't know how to properly express with crying and punching things
so i said it was amazing and i wanted it to go on for hours and all he had to say was IT WAS TOO LONG AND IT WAS HOT IN THERE
OH MY GOD JAKUB
welp there you have it, 2500 words on the greatest two and a half hours of my life that no one will read but i needed to scream into the void, i am a perfectly well adjusted human being thank you very much for noticing
SO
last week we went for team christmas lunch and it was mostly lame but our director mentioned he and his wife got tickets to a star wars symphony concert and my head whipped around fast i cricked my neck
STAR WARS
SYMPHONY
CONCERT
AKA SOMETHING I HAVE WANTED TO DO FOR LITERALLY TWENTY FIVE YEARS OH MY GOD I AM OLD
they saw my crazy eyes and said maybe there are still tickets? and they might be cheap since it's getting close to the date?
somehow i didn't actually check for tickets for a couple days cuz my head is permanently full of advent ineffable husbands fluff but then i did and BOUGHT ONE OH MY GOD HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO ME it was a little pricey but LITERAL CHILDHOOD DREAM COME TRUE
i predicted many many tears because 1) HAVE YOU MET ME and 2) i have cried at least a bit every single day of december because ADVENT INEFFABLE HUSBANDS FLUFF and then stupidly listened to muse on the way to the concert which almost leaves me emotionally compromised so let us just say i started crying from the VERY FIRST NOTE and basically didn't stop for the next two and a half hours
poor izzy had to deal with my incoherent whatsapp messages which i shall now recreate because it's been two days and i'm still major starry eyes over the whole thing
---------
I. DUEL OF THE FATES
they STARTED WITH THIS and there was ZERO PREAMBLE just CHORAL SANSKRIT IN YOUR FACE with NO TIME TO PREPARE i had the most epic chills ive ever felt and serious tears and i couldn't keep my eyes open because ENORMOUS SWELL OF FEELINGS oh my god i can't even properly describe the experience i was suddenly fourteen again during what is now referred to as The Summer of Star Wars because i saw the phantom menace in theatres NINE TIMES despite it being SERIOUSLY TERRIBLE which i wouldn't/couldn't admit for many years and mel was my enabler and everything was glorious and i got every single one of my friends obsessed with duel of the fates because HAVE YOU HEARD IT so yeah SERIOUSLY MEANINGFUL SONG RIGHT HERE i could write an entire essay on how much it means to me but ROLLING RIGHT ALONG TO:
II. ANAKIN'S THEME
AND THE TEARS CONTINUED god the music is utterly wasted on that terrible terrible movie i'm pretty sure we had the piano music for tpm and i made my mum play this once and it had so many accidentals that she refused to ever play it again i love how john williams's style is to pick a key and then refuse to stick to it for more than five seconds what a legend ALSO THE CONDUCTOR DID THE VADER BREATHING AT THE END I THOUGHT I'D IMAGINED IT BUT THEN HE WAS ALL LOL I COULDN'T RESIST I LOVE THIS GUY
III. THE FLAG PARADE
STILL CRYING BECAUSE HOLY SHIT this has to be the most unequal music to scene pairing known to man like it's SO FUCKING GOOD and the scene is just before the fucking podrace and ends with skinless threepio holding anakin's flag which was never even introduced as a thing just LOL LOOK FLAG PARADE IT'S SO MEANINGFUL LISTEN TO THIS EPIC MARCH and then it's just a beer fart of a scene because PODRACING NO ONE CARES ABOUT PODRACING LUCAS STOP TRYING TO MAKE IT A THING but the conductor was all omg this is the best march he's ever written except for every single other march he wrote for star wars he is such a john williams fanboy he and i need to be friends
IV. ACROSS THE STARS
ACROSS
THE
FUCKING
STARS
SO
MUCH
CRYING
the conductor read some notes that john williams wrote on this piece and it's HILARIOUS cuz the poor guy is so earnestly talking about anakin and padme's ILLICIT FORBIDDEN BEAUTIFUL LOVE AFFAIR and it's just the worst goddamn movie cuz lucas is a HACK and can't write anything worth shit and designed that fucking awful BLACK LEATHER BANDAGE DRESS that poor natalie portman has to wear while hayden christiansen somehow gets through WHEN IM AROUND YOU I CAN'T BREATHE YOU ARE IN MY VERY SOUL TORMENTING ME and doesn't break down for his lost career and padme is all I CAN'T BE A SENATOR AND HAVE A BOYFRIEND BECAUSE REASONS but if nothing else this appallingly terrible movie gave us this epic epic song that i will love til i die and continue to obsess over the tricky goddamn rhythm and that epic fucking switch from 3/4 to 4/4 time BABY MUSIC NERD BEFFY SHALL YELL ABOUT THIS UNTIL THE END OF TIME
V. BATTLE OF THE HEROES
AUGH THE CHOIR THE CHOIR I CAN'T DEAL WITH THE CHOIR i hardly ever listen to the rots soundtrack because it's a terrible horrible movie that hurts and yet is so bad you can't take it seriously and that's some serious cognitive dissonance and we hates it precious but AUGH THIS PERFORMANCE NEARLY KILLED ME i can't handle live choral especially set against the gayest most extra lightsaber battle of all time on the fucking volcano planet cuz that's totally a thing and also i was all ROMANCE OF THE JEDI because i am nothing if not predictable and TOO MANY FEELINGS AT ONCE and then two of the trumpets pulled out their lightsabers and had a mini duel still sitting in their chairs THESE GODDAMN NERDS I LOVE THESE PEOPLE also i forgot to mention the director of the choir was in full rots obiwan regalia and there were a couple other jedi and a PRINCESS BUNHEAD LEIA and later i noticed one of the flautists had big leia buns and suddenly i was all THAT COULD HAVE BEEN ME baby flautist beffy was so fucking happy BUT STILL CRYING BECAUSE AUGH THIS SONG
VI. THE ADVENTURES OF HAN SOLO
AKA JUNK FROM SOLO THE MOVIE THAT DOESN'T EXIST NOPE IT'S NOT CANON I REFUSE
that about sums it up the conductor was all this is the only music john williams wrote for this trash heap movie and it's great but i can't divorce it from how much i hate solo and it was super unemotive anyway and you can tell he didn't put any real feeling into it WHATEVER MOVING ON THERE WERE NO TEARS WHICH IS GOOD BECAUSE
BECAUSE NEXT
NEXT
VII: JYN ERSO AND HOPE SUITE
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALFBUCQPOI7ETYBQ;LIUTB;VYYGBVJDHBALHFJLQAHQ
this is actually beffy's ghost speaking because this actually slayed me i am dead dead dead lying on the floor of the fucking winspear centre for the rest of eternity because ROGUE FUCKING ONE AND MICHAEL GIACCHINO AND THEY BROUGHT THE CHOIR IN AT THE VERY END AND OH MY GOD I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS TWO DAYS LATER MUCH LESS DURING THE ACTUAL PERFORMANCE
this is where silent tears almost turned into ugly crying because YOU CAN'T JUST WHIP OUT THE ROGUE ONE SOUNDTRACK EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WAS COMING AND HAD DAYS TO PREPARE BUT OHMY GOD I SHAN'T EVER DEAL and the conductor told us michael fucking giacchino wrote the score in FIVE WEEKS??????????????????????? and it's the most DEVASTATING SCORE like he and henry jackman are never allowed to collaborate cuz the fucking world will explode or at least MY world will explode holy shit the conductor was saying how the score was different not just because of the composer but because you basically knew going into the story that EVERYONE DIES and that made the whole HOPE aspect hurt that much more so he really let us have it in the music THANKS A LOT GIACCHINO YOU ASSHOLE
so if you're keeping track i've now been crying for an hour minus the four minutes from solo because ugh and i thought the intermission was next which AUGH NO I NEED TO STOP WEEPING SO NO ONE ASKS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG AND I HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF WHICH HAHAHAHAHA NOPE I'VE BEEN YELLING FOR 1300 WORDS SO FAR AND WE'RE ONLY HALFWAY DONE but then i had a chance to recover a bit but only a bit BECAUSE
VIII: MAIN THEME PLUS ANH OPENING AND CLOSING CREDITS
LOL CONFESSION I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT THE MAIN THEME LIKE IT'S FINE?? AND ICONIC AS FUCK AND I APPRECIATE THAT BUT LIKE WHATEVER WHERE'S THE REAL MUSIC BUT THEN THE CLOSING CREDITS I LOVE SO FUCKING MUCH SO THERE WERE STILL A FEW TEARS BUT NO MORE UGLY CRYING THANK FUCK
IX. HERE THEY COME
SO FUCKING GOOD I LOVE THIS BIT plus it comes right after leia giving luke a comfort blanket after obiwan's death which is just PEAK ADORABLE SIBLINGNESS EVEN IF THEY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT YET also i may not have been crying at that point??? i forget??? but then THE TEARS RETURNED BECAUSE OH MY GOD
X. PRINCESS LEIA'S THEME
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
AND THEN THE CONDUCTOR TALKED ABOUT CARRIE FISHER BEING IMPORTANT AND ICONIC AND THE ROLES FOR WOMEN IN STAR WARS AND HOW IT LED TO REY AND FUCKING HELL SO MANY CREYS also lol remember when i thought this would make a great song to walk down the aisle to AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA BABY BEFFY IS CLEARLY A GENIUS
XI. THE IMPERIAL MARCH
BOMBOMBOMBOMBABOMBOMBABOM
istg the whole place wanted to sing along this kid came RUSHING IN from the side door so he didn't miss it and it was GRAND the brass section must have had SO MUCH FUN this whole concert but especially this goddamn john williams like his marching band aesthetic
XII. YODA'S THEME
yeah lol i don't really care about this either i actually kind of seriously hate yoda like ugh people are always ESB IS THE GREATEST MOVIE IN THE ETERNAL HISTORY OF MOVIES and i counter that with ROTJ OR BUST BITCHES i also hate threepio which is apparently also sacrilege this is why i don't get along with male nerds for the most part cuz they don't care about THEMES AND SHIT which is all i care about ahaha ANYWAY IT'S A PRETTY SONG BUT I MOSTLY DON'T CARE MOVING ON
XIII. PARADE OF THE EWOKS
still in the LOL I DON'T CARE GET TO LUKE AND LEIA BUT ALSO DON'T CUZ I'LL HAVE A GODDAMN EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN (SPOILER ALERT) but noteworthy because TOY PIANO AND TUNED COWBELLS the percussionists had a blast with this one it was adorable BUT THEN
THEN
XIV. LUKE AND LEIA
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKx2
CUE THE UGLY CRYING OH MY GOD YOU DON'T JUST CASUALLY BREAK OUT LUKE AND LEIA ESPECIALLY AFTER THE LAST JEDI I SHAN'T EVER FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT and of course the masochistic sensation seeking part of me was all NOW PLAY BROTHER AND SISTER, FATHER AND SON SO I MAY EMBARRASS MYSELF BY DRAMATICALLY THROWING MYSELF FROM THE BALCONY IN ATTEMPT TO EXPRESS THE DEPTH OF MY FEELINGS oh my god if there is ever one of those complete rotj concerts i will not be able to attend without a straightjacket i can't even listen to most of the soundtrack unless im home alone so i may weep in peace DAMN YOU JOHN WILLIAMS WHY YOU GOTTA BE THIS WAY
XV. MARCH OF THE RESISTANCE
and then we go from DRAMATIC BREAKDOWN MUSIC to HOLY SHIT MOST EPIC MARCH OF ALL TIME and i continued crying but also grinned like an idiot because POE HAS SOME GODDAMN SWAGGER AND THIS IS HIS SONG and the conductor was nerding out because this was written as a fugue which has ridic constraints to it and john williams is all LOL PERFECT LETS DO IT and i wanted to dance in my tight squeezy chair like an idiot but refrained for the poor people beside me who thankfully did not notice my 150 minute long mental breakdown BLESS YOU PEOPLE
XVI. REY'S THEME
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH REY REY MY LOVE REEEEEEEEEEY it's the most beautiful theme augh i love her and it so much how the fuck is episode ix still five days away GIVE IT TO ME GODDAMMIT and the conductor brought up WOMEN IN STAR WARS again and told this adorable story about john williams recording the score and noticing this young woman sitting in the corner by herself and was all uh can i help you and it was DAISY FUCKING RIDLEY who sneaked in just to sit and experience the magic god i love her so much REY REY MY HEART REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY
XVII. THE REBELLION IS REBORN
WHAT A SONG TO END ON OH MY GOD I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SO MANY PEOPLE HATE THE LAST JEDI IT'S FUCKING BRILLIANT AND HEARTFELT AND SO FUCKING EPIC AND GOOD OH MY GOD of course we had to end on yet another badass march JOHN WILLIAMS YOU BRILLIANT ASSHOLE I LOVE YOU FOREVER NOT STOP TORMENTING ME
AND THEN IT WAS OVER AND WE STOOD AND CLAPPED AND WHOOPED AND SCREAMED AND THEN THEY CAME BACK FOR
XVIII. THE THRONE ROOM AND END CREDITS
WHICH
OH MY GOD
REMEMBER WHEN MEL AND I WATCHED THIS SCENE ON REPEAT FOR AN ENTIRE SUMMER AND HAD A STUPID INJOKE FOR EVERY FRAME WE WERE THE WEIRDEST NERDIEST CHILDREN POOR CHARI SOMEHOW DIDN'T TAKE THE TAPE AWAY FROM US DESPITE THIS
AND THEN THAT WAS ACTUALLY REALLY THE END AND I WAS EXHAUSTED BUT ALSO WANTED IT TO GO ON FOR HOURS
---------
so even during the concert i was trying to decide what to say on monday when jakub asked me how i liked the concert cuz we like similar things but in VERY DIFFERENT WAYS (he is such a DUDE ohmygod) and i was all okay don't mention the weeping don't mention the childhood dream of playing for the LSO don't mention your rabid rampant feels that you don't know how to properly express with crying and punching things
so i said it was amazing and i wanted it to go on for hours and all he had to say was IT WAS TOO LONG AND IT WAS HOT IN THERE
OH MY GOD JAKUB
welp there you have it, 2500 words on the greatest two and a half hours of my life that no one will read but i needed to scream into the void, i am a perfectly well adjusted human being thank you very much for noticing