A Dietitian's Dream.
I really desperately need to work today. So, naturally, I have gone to the store to buy catfood, looked at pictures of the evolution of Victoria Beckham's hairstyles, sobbed through a Doctor Who vid (you are so evil, denorios), beat a children's spelling game and taught myself to sing the harmony in Knights of Cydonia (I am exceedingly pleased with this!).
I only have TWO WEEKS LEFT. TWO WEEKS. AHAHAHAHAHA. I AM SOMEWHAT GIDDY IN ANTICIPATION. AND IN HORROR OF THE SHEER AMOUNT OF STUFF I HAVE LEFT TO DO. HELP ME.
I had somewhat of an epiphany while I was in Calgary. I spent most of my time there dreading coming home to my seemingly endless pile of projects and streeeeeeeeeess, which kind of ruined my last day there. On the way to the airport, mum and dad were trying to build me up for facing the last few weeks, and dad told me that at the end of his articling year, he still didn't really have a clue how to be a lawyer and was pretty scared of entering the job market. That's exactly how I'm feeling, and it reassured me so much that it seems to be normal. I also remembered what one of the managers told me a few weeks ago. She said that this is MY rotation and that I need to make it whatever I want it to be. I've been approaching it in a much more passive way, just planning to 'jump through the hoops' as my mum is so fond of putting it. But that isn't really the point of this whole year. Yes, there are certain things that we have to accomplish in order to graduate, but it's not at all like completing a regular course. It scares me a lot that it really is up to me, but it's also kind of empowering. I simply have too many projects in this rotation, and it's up to me to talk to the managers and to negotiate cutting some of them. It's not like a course where you have to complete x number of assignments and papers in order to pass, it's very flexible. I really wish I'd figured this out, oh, months ago (even weeks ago would have made things so much easier).
SO. I'm a lot less panicky over everything. I just have to work up the nerve to sit down with the managers and discuss this. My midpoint evaluation would have been a good time, but I was too much of a wreck at that point. Sigh. Growing pains suck, I can be done them now? Please?
I know it's terrible silly, but one thing I've been holding onto this year is that it's the Year of the Ox, which is my animal sign and therefore my lucky year. Ahahaha I'm kind of embarrassed to say this, but I keep reminding myself quite forcefully of this which somehow helps me not to panic overly much. I am ridiculous, I know. Especially since it is in no way part of my culture, but WHATEVER. It is only somewhat partially because of Fruits Basket SHUT UP YOUR FACE
ILUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
I only have TWO WEEKS LEFT. TWO WEEKS. AHAHAHAHAHA. I AM SOMEWHAT GIDDY IN ANTICIPATION. AND IN HORROR OF THE SHEER AMOUNT OF STUFF I HAVE LEFT TO DO. HELP ME.
I had somewhat of an epiphany while I was in Calgary. I spent most of my time there dreading coming home to my seemingly endless pile of projects and streeeeeeeeeess, which kind of ruined my last day there. On the way to the airport, mum and dad were trying to build me up for facing the last few weeks, and dad told me that at the end of his articling year, he still didn't really have a clue how to be a lawyer and was pretty scared of entering the job market. That's exactly how I'm feeling, and it reassured me so much that it seems to be normal. I also remembered what one of the managers told me a few weeks ago. She said that this is MY rotation and that I need to make it whatever I want it to be. I've been approaching it in a much more passive way, just planning to 'jump through the hoops' as my mum is so fond of putting it. But that isn't really the point of this whole year. Yes, there are certain things that we have to accomplish in order to graduate, but it's not at all like completing a regular course. It scares me a lot that it really is up to me, but it's also kind of empowering. I simply have too many projects in this rotation, and it's up to me to talk to the managers and to negotiate cutting some of them. It's not like a course where you have to complete x number of assignments and papers in order to pass, it's very flexible. I really wish I'd figured this out, oh, months ago (even weeks ago would have made things so much easier).
SO. I'm a lot less panicky over everything. I just have to work up the nerve to sit down with the managers and discuss this. My midpoint evaluation would have been a good time, but I was too much of a wreck at that point. Sigh. Growing pains suck, I can be done them now? Please?
I know it's terrible silly, but one thing I've been holding onto this year is that it's the Year of the Ox, which is my animal sign and therefore my lucky year. Ahahaha I'm kind of embarrassed to say this, but I keep reminding myself quite forcefully of this which somehow helps me not to panic overly much. I am ridiculous, I know. Especially since it is in no way part of my culture, but WHATEVER. It is only somewhat partially because of Fruits Basket SHUT UP YOUR FACE
ILUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3