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I can't sleep. The incredible list of everything I have to do won't stop swirling madly through my tired brain. We were put through a number of roleplaying exercises this afternoon and my brain froze and I couldn't say anything. I can't seem to talk to people, or talk period. My boss now thinks I'm an incompetent fool. Just another thing to add to the piles of crap. I don't know what to do.
I don't want to do anything. Except that I want to do everything. You know the feeling? I think I need a break from life, but it simply can't and won't happen. I'd like to curl up into a ball, sleep for a few days and just do whatever the hell I want for a while. It's not that I don't like school because I do and it's what I want to be doing, but all the little ridiculous things that come along with it are piling up and trying to drown me with their inane repetitiveness and sheer pointlessness and some other nesses.
I should probably go talk to lovely Miss Melanie and ask for advice. She told us to do as much at the beginning of the year. I'll probably cry the entire time. It's what I do. I want to take no leisure time so that I can finish everything, but my mind won't let me. Nor should it. Why do we force ourselves through hell like this? Surely we can be competent, productive people without it. And if not, we're all doomed anyway, so I shan't bother.
I don't know what to do. I can only distract myself with terrible dragon fantasy literature for so long. Can't dump everything on others because they have their own piles to deal with. What's an insanely stressed out girl to do? Cry herself to sleep, I suppose. Doesn't sound like much fun. Bah.
I love you all a ridiculous amount. I know you know that, but know it again. Honestly, you all make me ridiculously happy and I want nothing more than to spend a lot of time with you. I wish I didn't suck so much at communication, but here's a start. Love.
I don't want to do anything. Except that I want to do everything. You know the feeling? I think I need a break from life, but it simply can't and won't happen. I'd like to curl up into a ball, sleep for a few days and just do whatever the hell I want for a while. It's not that I don't like school because I do and it's what I want to be doing, but all the little ridiculous things that come along with it are piling up and trying to drown me with their inane repetitiveness and sheer pointlessness and some other nesses.
I should probably go talk to lovely Miss Melanie and ask for advice. She told us to do as much at the beginning of the year. I'll probably cry the entire time. It's what I do. I want to take no leisure time so that I can finish everything, but my mind won't let me. Nor should it. Why do we force ourselves through hell like this? Surely we can be competent, productive people without it. And if not, we're all doomed anyway, so I shan't bother.
I don't know what to do. I can only distract myself with terrible dragon fantasy literature for so long. Can't dump everything on others because they have their own piles to deal with. What's an insanely stressed out girl to do? Cry herself to sleep, I suppose. Doesn't sound like much fun. Bah.
I love you all a ridiculous amount. I know you know that, but know it again. Honestly, you all make me ridiculously happy and I want nothing more than to spend a lot of time with you. I wish I didn't suck so much at communication, but here's a start. Love.