Nov 26, 2005 22:13
Well, ok, so I have been neglecting Live Journal for a while. Needless to say, I missed you guys, and many of you look like your doing well, or not so bad. If your not one of those people, my heart goes out to yas.
But if you want an update on my life, schools been taking it up. I've been home for about 5 days now, and I've done pretty much nothing but homework, it's kind of rediculious but it needed to get done. Like for example, I drove out to Chicago today and filmed the whole city. *hugs my mom* shes really being awesome about me coming home and just working on homework. I need to be strong right now I have 5 tests, a life self portrait and a 3 to 5 minute video on the transition between country, suburbs and city due the week of finals. After that I'm relaxing for two days out in Dekalb with Terry, and hopefully bringing Terry back home that Friday.
About me and him, we've both openly made our confession of our love for one another. In fact we didn't talk to each other for two days this week and when we got on the phone it was constant "I want to see you so badly" yes we've only been dating for two and a half months, but we both feel something much deeper for each other then either of us have ever felt before. I should get a good pic of him and me and post it on here, that way you guys know how cute he is. He really is cute, and your probably saying "your probably just saying that because he's your boyfriend." nah, I really don't understand how I got so luckly. Right now he's keeping me stable because of finals and this change to my house.
Oh yeah, about my home life. Things are odd right now, I haven't thought about my grandfathers death since I left. Mostly because I didn't have time, also because I didn't want to. I came home this weekend to have it punch me in the face. All our furniture has been replaced with his. It's quite strange, for the first time in my life, I feel like I live in somewhat of a rich house instead of a nice comfy little dump. I liked the comfy little dump, but I'm getting used to this. I'm also quickly getting used to my grandfathers death now. A lot of me has finally come to terms with it, and a lot of me realizes that in death: he's not alone, that he's in a much better place, and that he's lived a good life. Basically, I finally took a step back at everything, finally looked at all of it, and decided that everythings going to be ok. I really missed my home life, as much as I didn't want to come back to it, I was getting homesick for a while. But hey, learning to deal with things is just another part of growing up... ^-^
I guess what you could say is that my school life is stressing me out, but I have 2 weeks left and I'm like this every school year. My home life was depressing me heavily for a while, but I finally had a fucking ephany! My love life, I don't think I've EVER been happier in that field. Give me a little time and everything will be fucking fantastic again.