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i don't cry a lot, but i'm crying now.
i also had a dream.
i had a dream where i am visiting someone in college (harvard) and i go in and stay in the dorms which are really communal living rooms with everyone sleeping on cots or cribs. that night i sleep on a crib. diddy is in one next to me. my friends puts on an old film for all to watch on the screens above. everyone in the room curls up in a fetal position in their cribs. i try to decide how to sleep. diddy takes some stuff to hide in a locker. i take my cell bracelet and other jewelry and hide it under my head. the movie plays and at first it is slow, a bedtime movie. very melancholy. afterwards while people are still sleeping i stand up to look @ the tv. the tv screen is yellow glass mostly with some stained glass flowers. i look closer and notice that the tv screen was made by a student as a student project and it has his name along with where he welded it. then on the screen i see how the students made the film. as in, i see some scenes from the movie deconstructed ie. the students are walking along a suburban street rolling the heavy costumes. or loading supplies into a truck. i think this is what college is about, being around incredible people + teamwork. In the morning I get waken up by my friend to go to breakfast. There are lots of asian guys in the dorms, half who seem to like me, half who seem to hate me. watching me critically. i see a collection, a wall of my shoes on one wall, and other side of washer/dryers with my clothes inside. I take careful care in picking my shoes. My friend says it's just a brunch w/ friends, not much walking, so I figure I can wear heels. I start to brag a little about my shoe collection, but then I start to feel they are despising me for that. Also at night I went on the Harvard online forum which has a different sense of humor than other places. I think I find the posts here more interesting. Also some of the cuter/hotter Chinese boys I met here made a chinese student magazine which I read a bit, of, though I don't know all the characters. I think I like them more than the super-cocky ABC's. I pick a few pairs of shoes, both which have translucent floral lace over them and a slight-to-extremely-tall heel. There is also one pair of etremely ugly DKNY shoes, with the words "Donna Karen New York" logoed all over its wedge, in brown, like it's a tacky logoed shoe, it's like a 6 inch tall wedge, but the shape + color are horrid, mediocre at best. They call me again for breakfast and I feel pressure to make a selection. Then I wake up. One of the old movies we watched it's actually originally black + white, and silent but you would never notice since they colored in some parts of the film like sepia like in those old movies and added atmospheric music sound. It's a very lovely movie that would appeal to girls and romantics, but it's not famous. This is a very vintage copy and the only copy perhaps which has been tinted and using this music. A woman holding a sepia-colored whiskey glass in a dimly lit bar.
i also had a dream.
i had a dream where i am visiting someone in college (harvard) and i go in and stay in the dorms which are really communal living rooms with everyone sleeping on cots or cribs. that night i sleep on a crib. diddy is in one next to me. my friends puts on an old film for all to watch on the screens above. everyone in the room curls up in a fetal position in their cribs. i try to decide how to sleep. diddy takes some stuff to hide in a locker. i take my cell bracelet and other jewelry and hide it under my head. the movie plays and at first it is slow, a bedtime movie. very melancholy. afterwards while people are still sleeping i stand up to look @ the tv. the tv screen is yellow glass mostly with some stained glass flowers. i look closer and notice that the tv screen was made by a student as a student project and it has his name along with where he welded it. then on the screen i see how the students made the film. as in, i see some scenes from the movie deconstructed ie. the students are walking along a suburban street rolling the heavy costumes. or loading supplies into a truck. i think this is what college is about, being around incredible people + teamwork. In the morning I get waken up by my friend to go to breakfast. There are lots of asian guys in the dorms, half who seem to like me, half who seem to hate me. watching me critically. i see a collection, a wall of my shoes on one wall, and other side of washer/dryers with my clothes inside. I take careful care in picking my shoes. My friend says it's just a brunch w/ friends, not much walking, so I figure I can wear heels. I start to brag a little about my shoe collection, but then I start to feel they are despising me for that. Also at night I went on the Harvard online forum which has a different sense of humor than other places. I think I find the posts here more interesting. Also some of the cuter/hotter Chinese boys I met here made a chinese student magazine which I read a bit, of, though I don't know all the characters. I think I like them more than the super-cocky ABC's. I pick a few pairs of shoes, both which have translucent floral lace over them and a slight-to-extremely-tall heel. There is also one pair of etremely ugly DKNY shoes, with the words "Donna Karen New York" logoed all over its wedge, in brown, like it's a tacky logoed shoe, it's like a 6 inch tall wedge, but the shape + color are horrid, mediocre at best. They call me again for breakfast and I feel pressure to make a selection. Then I wake up. One of the old movies we watched it's actually originally black + white, and silent but you would never notice since they colored in some parts of the film like sepia like in those old movies and added atmospheric music sound. It's a very lovely movie that would appeal to girls and romantics, but it's not famous. This is a very vintage copy and the only copy perhaps which has been tinted and using this music. A woman holding a sepia-colored whiskey glass in a dimly lit bar.