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So I haven't posted in fucking forever. I'm still reading (mostly), and I am still not on tumblr because tumblr and I have a fundamental disconnect related to my intense dislike of gifs. I am just. Blugh.
I seem to be stuck in that lovely level of depression where I don't give a good goddamn about anything. At all.
I'm behind on my all my tv shows, because I download them and then don't bother to watch them. I took the trash out tonight for the first time in two weeks. I've had piles of dirty towels sitting on the floor waiting to go in the washing machine for almost a month, because I sorted them and then just stopped bothering. I have clean clothes currently in the dryer, and instead of folding them, I am taking shirts out of the dryer on the days I bother to get dressed. Today, I ate nothing but popcorn and heavily spiked hot chocolate. It is currently 4:30 in the morning and I haven't gone to bed yet.
I have no job and about two months worth of money left and all I can think is "oh" and then I just go back to reading bad Teen Wolf fic - which is a show I have seen exactly one episode of, for the record. I ran out of SGA fic. And doing absolutely nothing to change my money situation because I just can't bring myself to care.
And I know I need therapy and meds but I just. I can't make myself do anything about it. Not that I could afford it anyway. I can't even make myself call the optometrist to make an eye appointment, which I really need to do, because my glasses are falling apart.
I know I'm completely fucked right now, I just don't care for more than a few minutes a day.
Fuck brains in the ear.
In other news, Mediaeval Baebes have a new Christmas album out, Of Kings & Angels. You should check it out, if you're into that sort of thing. They are my favorites. Have the music video they made for their new version of We Three Kings:
Well. This entry was all over the place.
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I seem to be stuck in that lovely level of depression where I don't give a good goddamn about anything. At all.
I'm behind on my all my tv shows, because I download them and then don't bother to watch them. I took the trash out tonight for the first time in two weeks. I've had piles of dirty towels sitting on the floor waiting to go in the washing machine for almost a month, because I sorted them and then just stopped bothering. I have clean clothes currently in the dryer, and instead of folding them, I am taking shirts out of the dryer on the days I bother to get dressed. Today, I ate nothing but popcorn and heavily spiked hot chocolate. It is currently 4:30 in the morning and I haven't gone to bed yet.
I have no job and about two months worth of money left and all I can think is "oh" and then I just go back to reading bad Teen Wolf fic - which is a show I have seen exactly one episode of, for the record. I ran out of SGA fic. And doing absolutely nothing to change my money situation because I just can't bring myself to care.
And I know I need therapy and meds but I just. I can't make myself do anything about it. Not that I could afford it anyway. I can't even make myself call the optometrist to make an eye appointment, which I really need to do, because my glasses are falling apart.
I know I'm completely fucked right now, I just don't care for more than a few minutes a day.
Fuck brains in the ear.
In other news, Mediaeval Baebes have a new Christmas album out, Of Kings & Angels. You should check it out, if you're into that sort of thing. They are my favorites. Have the music video they made for their new version of We Three Kings:
Click to viewWell. This entry was all over the place.
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