Fic: why do you make it hard to love you (part two)

[ladysonsie]

Title: why do you make it hard to love you (part two)
Author: ladysonsie
Artist: sweetiejelly
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Everything you are about to read is not real. Fiction, kids. Which means I'm just one big liar. So no offense meant and ohmygod don't sue, plz! I kinda like my things and want to keep them, thanks.
Characters/Pairings: Van/Jake
Word Count: 10.3k

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[secondmezzanine]

“I like you.” Jake downs a shot of the grainy liquid and places the bottle down, skirting it around until the sand makes a cocoon for it to stay upright in.
Okay, so, this is one of the reasons I love you. He says something so simple but it makes my knees go weak, and then you use words that I would never think to use and make them awesome and compelling.

It’s a little sloppy and wet at first, all tongue and teeth, him fighting to open his mouth wider so he can taste Jake. He wonders if Jake can feel his heart beating in his throat as he explores, the flavor of his nerves on the tip of his tongue bursting out. He’s overheated and Jake’s day old scruff is scraping against Van’s jaw, the tiny tingles intensifying everything that much more. Jake pulls at the nape of Van’s neck to bring him impossibly deeper, threading his fingers though his hair and making this hot as fuck moan in the back of his throat that gets the deep satisfaction of Van’s cock.

You know, sometimes I marvel at the fact that it’s just these same two guys (and I use the word “just” a little bit sarcastically because there’s no such thing as just Van and Jake or just Luke and Noah!!!!) but then there are these amazing writers who can do THIS. Make it all new and completely invest me all over again. WITH. THE. HOTNESS.

Jake smiles. “That’s half the fun, Hansis.” He reaches out and starts to stroke Van’s thigh sending this shiver down Van’s spine that dries his throat. He’s been handsy all day, touching Van everywhere, whenever they had been near each other. Always so fucking touchy. “I just want to play tonight.”

Oh dear lord in heaven save me. I’M NOT SURE I’M GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THIS STORY WITHOUT DYING. You know. In a really hot good way.

I love Jake written like this. Where he’s sort of an instigator and yeah, he’s playing with emotions he probably shouldn’t play with and getting all ahead of himself but OH MAN IT’S RIGHT.

They’re hunched over and in their own world, giggling like someone just slipped on a banana peel in front of them. It’s kinda cute in a way that still makes Van want to punch a hole in the wall. He loves Tala and Jake is Jake and this whole thing is making the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.

Fuck you, Silbermann. Fuck you.

THE ANGST. Oh how I love the angst. My very favorite kind of angst.

And that scene where Van confronts Jake and they fight about the dating co-workers thing and and and and and? You know? I swear I could feel my chest tightening with the utter YEARNING. And again… THE ANGST. Dannnnnngggggg. I realized by the end of that scene (hoo boy) that I was staring so hard at the screen I needed to relax mah eyes. Hee.

And BILLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You get bonus points now.

I love that you ended with tomorrow. Utterly wonderful.

Sigh sigh sigh.

[ladysonsie]

So, I'm not even gonna front or try to act cool. I was talking on skype with sarafim when I got this notification and I might have, like, acted like a slight dork.

I JUST FANGIRL OKAY?

Which, ha. I don't really do! But you know how much I adore your writing so to get this from you just made me all blushy and made this worth it because I kept going back and forth on this story because the boys were a little different than normal.

Anyway! Just, gosh. Thank you so much for this entire thing. Everything you said was what I was hoping to convey so it means a lot that you enjoyed it and pointed out what you did. This whole thing was amazing and you're a doll.

♥

ps. And I am UTTERLY embarrassed as well though! I was so tired and crossed eyed from trying to finish this thing that when I posted it I just threw it up there and completely missed the broken coding. *facepalm* I didn't notice until later that night that this entire last section was a MESS. So, ha. Sparkly dildo for you for reading it when it was like that. And so sorry about that!

Also, also. More Mezz fic soon, plz. Yes? Yes.

[secondmezzanine]

Oh girlfriend, you make me blush. This is why I love this fandom. Everybody makes me feel all warm and mushy inside, plus cute boys doing sexy things. I love you all so much.

Oh, and I totally didn't mind the coding thing... I just wanted to read it right away so I went ahead and did! It was fine! :) But heck, I'll take the sparkly dildo!!!!

So... I do have a fic ready for posting but I just feel like it's sub-par right now and am scared to post it for fear of people recognizing its sub-parness. But I'm trying to get up the nerve to post it soon! For now let's just let everyone enjoy the dazzlingness (yes it's a word) of THIS fic!