And another piece of my childhood is gone ...
I know everyone has seen THIS already, and forgive the spam because it's all over fandom right now.
But, shit, I just am really sad about this. elin_aurora let me know before I left this morning that the show had been cancelled and I thought about it all day when I was out. I just can't stop thinking about it. Or believe it for that matter. Mostly because I've watched it since I was a little girl.
And that's actually what hurts the most, funny enough. I mean, listen. I've got all this emotions going on about fandom and the boys and what this all means and hoping now that at least we get both boys for the next 9 mos. because dammit I need some time to digest this and build up to it! But I knew Van and Jake weren't gonna stay on the soap forever. I was thinking maybe we'd get another year out of them but even that I had doubts about. I suppose we'll never know now but at the end of the day I knew they'd prob. eventually move on. Although the idea of them not being on my screen as Luke and Noah isn't something I've really let myself think about because ... :( :( :( *heart breaks*
But the whole show? GOD that hurts. It's a part of my childhood and soaps are a part of who I am. My grandmother watched GL and ATWT back when they first started. She's been gone since I was 14 and yet I've always felt this connection because of these shows. And then my mother watched and now I do. We didn't have the best relationship when I was growing up (thank goodness that has changed) but the one thing we did have was soaps that we talked about. And I love soaps. LOVE them. I love that I can go on with my life and tune back in and out and have these characters that I've grown up with still there. It's like this warm, cozy thing that's always been a constant in life when life can be so damn inconsistent. And I've always taken comfort knowing that they are there whenever I want to watch.
So, sigh. It feels like the beginning of the end for a whole genre that I just love and holds so many memories and connections to people that I love. And that makes me so incredibly sad.
But, shit, I just am really sad about this. elin_aurora let me know before I left this morning that the show had been cancelled and I thought about it all day when I was out. I just can't stop thinking about it. Or believe it for that matter. Mostly because I've watched it since I was a little girl.
And that's actually what hurts the most, funny enough. I mean, listen. I've got all this emotions going on about fandom and the boys and what this all means and hoping now that at least we get both boys for the next 9 mos. because dammit I need some time to digest this and build up to it! But I knew Van and Jake weren't gonna stay on the soap forever. I was thinking maybe we'd get another year out of them but even that I had doubts about. I suppose we'll never know now but at the end of the day I knew they'd prob. eventually move on. Although the idea of them not being on my screen as Luke and Noah isn't something I've really let myself think about because ... :( :( :( *heart breaks*
But the whole show? GOD that hurts. It's a part of my childhood and soaps are a part of who I am. My grandmother watched GL and ATWT back when they first started. She's been gone since I was 14 and yet I've always felt this connection because of these shows. And then my mother watched and now I do. We didn't have the best relationship when I was growing up (thank goodness that has changed) but the one thing we did have was soaps that we talked about. And I love soaps. LOVE them. I love that I can go on with my life and tune back in and out and have these characters that I've grown up with still there. It's like this warm, cozy thing that's always been a constant in life when life can be so damn inconsistent. And I've always taken comfort knowing that they are there whenever I want to watch.
So, sigh. It feels like the beginning of the end for a whole genre that I just love and holds so many memories and connections to people that I love. And that makes me so incredibly sad.