Sep 29, 2012 14:34
After 2 weeks of hellish waiting I finally allowed myself to take a second at home pregnancy test. I did one 2 weeks ago and it was positive, but I was getting over an illness and finishing some meds so I wanted to wait a bit before doing it again just to make sure the reading was right. "2 weeks isn't a long wait" yeah right :/ for me that's an eternity so that's about all I could wait. I still have to wait about a month before my OB will see me though, not much shows up on a sonogram before 6 weeks so I'm scheduling mine for almost 2 months in just to be safe. Since I miscarried close to 2 years ago I want to wait and make sure that everything is coming along ok this time around. So the hubby and I decided to wait a little longer before going in for that first check-up and also we're not really telling anybody either. Two of my friends know as do my parents and that's about it. Haven't told my in-laws yet but I really want to wait before telling them so as not to dash theirs hopes into the ground if something were to go wrong. The last time my mother-in-law was so excited when she traveled to see us during the much anticipated pregnancy but my son was in the hospital and so much was going on at the time no one told her about the miscarriage before she got here so there was nothing but heartache all around. I know it sounds cruel to tell just my parents and not his but at least he understands I want to spare their feelings if anything goes wrong. Same with other friends and myself, only 3 weeks had elapsed when I had to turn around and tell everyone what had happened, not again, I couldn't take a second time. So, we're playing it same and mums the word as to why I feel so sick and shut-off lately. I hope and pray that once we can confirm that everything is ok and this baby will make it that the wait and secrecy will be worth it for everyone else.