random insecurity cowpattiez
Maybe it's just getting close to that time of the month. I'm just about begging for aunt flo and uncle red to show up quickly. The thought of having unexpected 9month surprises scares the shit out of me. Though, in my past, I've been considered quite the slut, I've always used some method of birth control. Now after 7 years, I'm taking a break. I never had to consider the alternative reactions to my extra curicular behavior.
Just feelin a tad insecure at the moment. I hate those moments. A lot more than having someone catch me while I'm crying. All our lives we search... search for that someone else that is what we consider to be our better half. Some of us find it, some settle with the wrong ones, and some keep on searching until their heart is content. I think that I might have found mine. Now that I've just wrote that, I want to run and hide and take that statement back and keep it hidden in the cobwebs of my mind.
Though my logic is primarily realistic, the thoughts inside my mind which captivate all of my dreams keep me within a fantasy. A place where my future is full of love and a simplistic life of an eccentric happily ever after. ...someone kill me now so that I can dream...oh wait, I'm just depressed...the dreams return as I close my eyes once again.
Just feelin a tad insecure at the moment. I hate those moments. A lot more than having someone catch me while I'm crying. All our lives we search... search for that someone else that is what we consider to be our better half. Some of us find it, some settle with the wrong ones, and some keep on searching until their heart is content. I think that I might have found mine. Now that I've just wrote that, I want to run and hide and take that statement back and keep it hidden in the cobwebs of my mind.
Though my logic is primarily realistic, the thoughts inside my mind which captivate all of my dreams keep me within a fantasy. A place where my future is full of love and a simplistic life of an eccentric happily ever after. ...someone kill me now so that I can dream...oh wait, I'm just depressed...the dreams return as I close my eyes once again.