You have come this far, ne? Omedeto! :)
I am not good with words. My grammar sucks big time, and I'm one trying hard person writing in English. Honestly, I suck more in writing my mother language (Filipino). But, if it's for Arashi then I'll do it, in order to express my gratitude towards my most favorite group in the world. :)
I was Jun-baited, but it was a long run before I finally became an Arashi fan. I didn't actually fall for J too fast even if I have watched Gokusen and HanaDan for both nth times, yes I always thought he's good looking but I'm not in love at once, but eventually I fell in love. It was in May 2010. So every year in May, I celebrate my fangirling anniversary. I am aware that I'm not one of the fans for the longest time in this fandom, I'm just entering my 3rd year, but the past 2 years were really something.
I learned a lot from just watching them.
I cried lots of happy tears.
I laughed and smiled a lot.
I spent a lot of money.
It was awesome, and it still is. And I don't think I would be leaving this fandom anytime soon, actually I think I wouldn't even want to leave this fandom.
There were fans who I don't get a long with, but I tried to lower myself because I don't want to get into senseless fights over the internet. I just want to love Arashi.
Maybe, it can be called fangirling on my own, because really, I don't talk to other fans that much, and don't attend gatherings that much. I talk a bit, but not to the point that I can call them my best buds, or that I depend on them much. I just don't want to be disappointed. Some fans were really conceited, but I decided to just ignore them, because Arashi won't be happy with that. You might find it funny that I think like that, but really, I think like that. I'm not saying I'm one good person, I can be mean sometimes, but I'm not that bad either.
It might sound exaggerated but Arashi had saved me for a number of times.
There was this semester at uni wherein my state of mind was totally lost.
I don't know what I want to do anymore. I don't want to be bothered anymore.
I went to school like nothing's wrong, but I was crying almost every night.
Aside from my mom, Arashi (and other groups) were the only people I was able to run to.
You know, seeing Arashi performing, smiling and making people smile, and doing their best, and not coming up with just half-assed stuff. I was really moved, and I'm still getting moved.
It made me think that I should do my best, to at least survive.
Watching the Darts Trip of Arashi in 24hr tv, made me really think.
It was nice to hear people's dreams.
How children want to be heroes, and how grandmas and grandpas still have dreams even if they are already old.
If ask right now what my dreams are.
IT IS TO BE ABLE TO SAVE UP AND GO TO JAPAN.
BE A MEMBER OF THE ARASHI'S OFFICIAL FANS CLUB.
ATTEND ARASHI CONCERTS.
LIVE IN JAPAN.
FIND WORK IN JAPAN.
TRAVEL AROUND JAPAN.
I won't be hypocrite and say I would love to stay in the country I'm in now.
I don't despise it that much, but I just really want to live in Japan.
It's amazing on how I think it is a home to me, even though I haven't been there.
Arashi is to blame I must say, but really, I'm thankful, because if it weren't for them, I don't think I will even strive and do my best.
Arashi, Happy 13th Anniversary!
Congratulations on making it this far!
I know you will have more years to come as a group, and I will continue to follow and support you!
Thank you for inspiring me.
Thank you for putting sparkles, smiles, and rainbows in my life! I love you!
Jun, Nino, Aiba, Sho and Ohno, from the bottom of my loving heart, THANK YOU ❤