it's been a long time
since i update this thing. but i was talking to valerie the other day and she asked me why i never write in here anymore. so i thought.... i should. because myspace has simply become too public.
anyway
i'm sad
because i was looking through old comments and whatnot
and i realized how many people i used to hang out with taht i never see anymore
and how many people aren't friends
even my friend brandon got a different myspace
and didn't add me on it.
that made me very sad, because i really don't talk to him any other way because he lives in goshen.
i really think everyone hates each other.
like, people just stopped giving a fuck about each other, or about seeing each other.
i feel like...
like i would do anything for my friends
or anything to see my friends
and no one else cares.
nobody cares about each other anymore.
i keep hoping it's just winter
i mean, i was pretty hermitty last winter
and then when summer came
i was pretty much awesome
but now i'm thinking
omg, what if it's not winter.
what if everyone just changed
nothing will ever be ok again
it's a pretty gut-wrenching thought actually. most the thoughts i think are gut-wrenching.
the urge to run away from muncie is getting pretty overwhelming lately.
but there are little things that make me feel ok
like last nite i watched secretary with erica, just me and her, and that was fun, she is an awesome lady. and today phillip promised to take me out when i get back from florida because he still hasn't given me my christmas present.
but school is getting harder, and things keep getting weirder, and life is, in general, pretty much piling up on me.
so i'm taking it out
on lj.
^_^
also, i know everyone knows and nobody cares
but i have some fucking boy issues
that i am just about fucking sick of.
i'm a junior in college. i'm 20. not that old.
but im sick to death of being single. i'm also sick to death of dating around.
it's dumb. ARGH
i wish *SOMEONE*
would fucking grow up
and learn what it is to be in a real relationship.
seriously guys
i'm so tired of the way things are
something needs to fucking happen
people need to wake the fuck up
thanks for listening.
anyway
i'm sad
because i was looking through old comments and whatnot
and i realized how many people i used to hang out with taht i never see anymore
and how many people aren't friends
even my friend brandon got a different myspace
and didn't add me on it.
that made me very sad, because i really don't talk to him any other way because he lives in goshen.
i really think everyone hates each other.
like, people just stopped giving a fuck about each other, or about seeing each other.
i feel like...
like i would do anything for my friends
or anything to see my friends
and no one else cares.
nobody cares about each other anymore.
i keep hoping it's just winter
i mean, i was pretty hermitty last winter
and then when summer came
i was pretty much awesome
but now i'm thinking
omg, what if it's not winter.
what if everyone just changed
nothing will ever be ok again
it's a pretty gut-wrenching thought actually. most the thoughts i think are gut-wrenching.
the urge to run away from muncie is getting pretty overwhelming lately.
but there are little things that make me feel ok
like last nite i watched secretary with erica, just me and her, and that was fun, she is an awesome lady. and today phillip promised to take me out when i get back from florida because he still hasn't given me my christmas present.
but school is getting harder, and things keep getting weirder, and life is, in general, pretty much piling up on me.
so i'm taking it out
on lj.
^_^
also, i know everyone knows and nobody cares
but i have some fucking boy issues
that i am just about fucking sick of.
i'm a junior in college. i'm 20. not that old.
but im sick to death of being single. i'm also sick to death of dating around.
it's dumb. ARGH
i wish *SOMEONE*
would fucking grow up
and learn what it is to be in a real relationship.
seriously guys
i'm so tired of the way things are
something needs to fucking happen
people need to wake the fuck up
thanks for listening.