speechless in a bad way
I'm speechless, really. I feel absolutely helpless, like there's nothing I can do. I can't be as "there" as others. And it sucks. It makes me feel so bad inside, like it's my fault. It's my fault for a lot of things. I just can't do anything right anymore. I can't be there for those I love. I can't help those in need no matter how much I want to. I can't just be myself.
I'm sorry to those I can't help. I'm sorry there's nothing I can do. I can try, but knowing me, it'll just make things worse. I want you to know that I'm always here for you. It may not help, but it's the best I can do for you. And you should know that.
I'm trying so hard to work on this. Is there something wrong with me? Is there something that just makes me screw up relationships? Is there something about me that just turns others off to the point where I have no friends? And the people I am friends with... it's just so... weird. Oh man, this is something I didn't want my junior year to be. PLEASE let my new year be 100% better. Let others new year be 100% better. please let everything work out.
I don't like to cry all the time.
more to come.
I'm sorry to those I can't help. I'm sorry there's nothing I can do. I can try, but knowing me, it'll just make things worse. I want you to know that I'm always here for you. It may not help, but it's the best I can do for you. And you should know that.
I'm trying so hard to work on this. Is there something wrong with me? Is there something that just makes me screw up relationships? Is there something about me that just turns others off to the point where I have no friends? And the people I am friends with... it's just so... weird. Oh man, this is something I didn't want my junior year to be. PLEASE let my new year be 100% better. Let others new year be 100% better. please let everything work out.
I don't like to cry all the time.
more to come.