The sweet taste of freedom.
So I had my last exam today. I spent the morning studying for it, and ended up lying on the hill in the sun, listening to my music and enjoying the peace. Although I love Geos, and ever fear that I'll do badly at it (because I'm better at maths, though I dislike it. Sigh), I couldn't seem to focus on it. It was like my exams were already over, so far as my mind is concerned, and i was just waiting for reality to catch up to it.
But it's okay, because I studied enough that, after doing the exam, I feel happy. And now I have six weeks of holiday to look forward. Six weeks of delicious, blissful peace, of being able to sleep in, or to stay up late reading fanfiction and not worry that I should be doing an assignment or study or something useful. Six weeks of having DAYTIME, of being able to go out and do stuff and see all the movies I havenm't seen and go to all the places I haven't gone and read all the books I long to read and get back to my writing, which I've missed so terribly but didn't have time to THINK of, let alone DO.
And, of course, I have lots of things already planned to fill up my time. There's the LOA concert, and the coldplay concert, and the Staind concert. I have Lee's dance thing, and I have clubbing with Ness sometime soon, and I have Sarah's birthday partay (which involves a pubcrawl, as neither of us have done one, which should be very entertaining!). And, of course, work and rehearsals and meeting people and such. So my social life gets a boost, and my brain gets a rest, and by August I'll be ready and even excited to get back to my studies - I have NATURAL HAZARDS next semester, which will so totally rock!
But yes, freedom is good. But I've always loved it. In fact, if put to the question, I might say it is the most important thing to me. More important than truth, more important than love, more important than happiness. The most wonderful, painful, important thing in the world is free will.
It actually came up last night, amusingly enough. I don't know why, but somehow the garden of eden got mentioned. And my brother, who has gone christian on me, simply didn't understand why I said i like eve. After all, she brought pain and suffering into the world, turned us out of the garden etc... but, you know, over a life of pleasant bliss and obeying gods every whim, I'd take knowledge of good or evil any day. I would rather be able to make my own choices, however wrong they may be, and reap the benefits or suffering as necessitated, and grow from them. I would rather have the ability to do wrong things. I would rather be imperfect. In fact, another thing my brother doesn't understand, I would take our world over some perfect heaven any day!
In short, I claim the right to be unhappy. How about you?
But it's okay, because I studied enough that, after doing the exam, I feel happy. And now I have six weeks of holiday to look forward. Six weeks of delicious, blissful peace, of being able to sleep in, or to stay up late reading fanfiction and not worry that I should be doing an assignment or study or something useful. Six weeks of having DAYTIME, of being able to go out and do stuff and see all the movies I havenm't seen and go to all the places I haven't gone and read all the books I long to read and get back to my writing, which I've missed so terribly but didn't have time to THINK of, let alone DO.
And, of course, I have lots of things already planned to fill up my time. There's the LOA concert, and the coldplay concert, and the Staind concert. I have Lee's dance thing, and I have clubbing with Ness sometime soon, and I have Sarah's birthday partay (which involves a pubcrawl, as neither of us have done one, which should be very entertaining!). And, of course, work and rehearsals and meeting people and such. So my social life gets a boost, and my brain gets a rest, and by August I'll be ready and even excited to get back to my studies - I have NATURAL HAZARDS next semester, which will so totally rock!
But yes, freedom is good. But I've always loved it. In fact, if put to the question, I might say it is the most important thing to me. More important than truth, more important than love, more important than happiness. The most wonderful, painful, important thing in the world is free will.
It actually came up last night, amusingly enough. I don't know why, but somehow the garden of eden got mentioned. And my brother, who has gone christian on me, simply didn't understand why I said i like eve. After all, she brought pain and suffering into the world, turned us out of the garden etc... but, you know, over a life of pleasant bliss and obeying gods every whim, I'd take knowledge of good or evil any day. I would rather be able to make my own choices, however wrong they may be, and reap the benefits or suffering as necessitated, and grow from them. I would rather have the ability to do wrong things. I would rather be imperfect. In fact, another thing my brother doesn't understand, I would take our world over some perfect heaven any day!
In short, I claim the right to be unhappy. How about you?