It Has Been Awhile
This year has been so different for me than last year.
I'm a different person, but I'm not. I've changed a lot - mainly in the area of my humor, I'd say - but so much of me has remained the same that it's not hard for me to recognize myself.
Well, no matter what else I have (or don't have) going on in my life - I always have my knee to talk about. I am once again discouraged. It's such a series of up's and down's, though, that this is just typical. I'm just sick of it. I've been doing "therapy" and "exercises" almost every day since April 18 and after a couple months of it, it does tend to get just a little old. Now it's been four months of it. Only three months since surgery though. I still have a long and unpredictable road ahead of me.
"A million miles away from anything familiar
A thousand places I would rather be
So I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side
Though I find it hard to see beyond my suffering
In my heart I know your plan is so much bigger
But this small part is all that I can see
And I believe you haven't left me here to wander
But I can't help but ponder where you're leading me
So I ask, 'Why this road?
Why this weight and this load?
Tell me, how far must I go till I see - till I know - why?...
From here I cannot see why you choose this path for me
But I don't have to understand to believe that You know why..."
-Ginny Owens
There's more to the song (which is beautiful by the way), but that's the jist. It puts it better than I could. It's like Willow said about faith - questions are a part of it. We don't have to understand what God is doing, but the faith comes in that we trust God's goodness - that he has our best in mind.
I'm a different person, but I'm not. I've changed a lot - mainly in the area of my humor, I'd say - but so much of me has remained the same that it's not hard for me to recognize myself.
Well, no matter what else I have (or don't have) going on in my life - I always have my knee to talk about. I am once again discouraged. It's such a series of up's and down's, though, that this is just typical. I'm just sick of it. I've been doing "therapy" and "exercises" almost every day since April 18 and after a couple months of it, it does tend to get just a little old. Now it's been four months of it. Only three months since surgery though. I still have a long and unpredictable road ahead of me.
"A million miles away from anything familiar
A thousand places I would rather be
So I choke back the tears and try to find the bright side
Though I find it hard to see beyond my suffering
In my heart I know your plan is so much bigger
But this small part is all that I can see
And I believe you haven't left me here to wander
But I can't help but ponder where you're leading me
So I ask, 'Why this road?
Why this weight and this load?
Tell me, how far must I go till I see - till I know - why?...
From here I cannot see why you choose this path for me
But I don't have to understand to believe that You know why..."
-Ginny Owens
There's more to the song (which is beautiful by the way), but that's the jist. It puts it better than I could. It's like Willow said about faith - questions are a part of it. We don't have to understand what God is doing, but the faith comes in that we trust God's goodness - that he has our best in mind.