I'm a bum
Sorry guys, i know it has been way too long, but I honestly haven't felt decent in... well in months. Ya know how it can get. I went out Friday night with my counslers daughter and 2 German foreign exchange kids. We went to see this band, that was good, but not my style. Laurel goes to one of my colleges and we chatted about that for a bit. I got home an hour and a half late, but my folks didn't care (how strange).
Saturday at the grocery store I had to get shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, deoderant and face wash. Yes this is a lot and especially when you don't buy the cheap shit, so my parents have banned me from buying anymore, they want me to use $.99 shampoo, and regular soap and cheep deoderant. What the hell, ok, o this seems pety, but I really need the good stuff. I mean, it is hard enough for me to create beauty, it's even harder for me to do it without decent supplies to work with... What am I to do now? God I feel stupid, but this is a big deal to me.
I have college auditions next weekend and I am a bit nervous. One song I am required to do isn't even memorized yet. God, shoot me. I need a boyfriend, I am so out of practice, I couldn't even flirt with a drunk guy... NOT GOOD! I still dream about my beautiful Indian man, but he gets farther and farther away. Ok, this week I have to do several English papers, learn a song to perform next week, get ready for my auditions, and memorize that peice of music and do it with the accompanist, audition for the musical at school and go see a friend of mine in her school play. Way too much to worry about, and the sad part is, this is my easiest week until school gets out. I just hope "HE" comes to the Magic of Christmas thing I am doing.
Oh well, that's life. I guess after this is over, i might concentrate a little more on finding a suitable guy for a while. I mean, I could find one, i know, but I want something out of it, not just some horny guy. But I'll go for now. Someone wake me up when this is over.
Saturday at the grocery store I had to get shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, deoderant and face wash. Yes this is a lot and especially when you don't buy the cheap shit, so my parents have banned me from buying anymore, they want me to use $.99 shampoo, and regular soap and cheep deoderant. What the hell, ok, o this seems pety, but I really need the good stuff. I mean, it is hard enough for me to create beauty, it's even harder for me to do it without decent supplies to work with... What am I to do now? God I feel stupid, but this is a big deal to me.
I have college auditions next weekend and I am a bit nervous. One song I am required to do isn't even memorized yet. God, shoot me. I need a boyfriend, I am so out of practice, I couldn't even flirt with a drunk guy... NOT GOOD! I still dream about my beautiful Indian man, but he gets farther and farther away. Ok, this week I have to do several English papers, learn a song to perform next week, get ready for my auditions, and memorize that peice of music and do it with the accompanist, audition for the musical at school and go see a friend of mine in her school play. Way too much to worry about, and the sad part is, this is my easiest week until school gets out. I just hope "HE" comes to the Magic of Christmas thing I am doing.
Oh well, that's life. I guess after this is over, i might concentrate a little more on finding a suitable guy for a while. I mean, I could find one, i know, but I want something out of it, not just some horny guy. But I'll go for now. Someone wake me up when this is over.