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I'm depressed. I don't know what it is, but a part of me feels so empty, like there is nothing there, nothing inside to keep me from falling. I feel myself falling, and I can't pull myself back, what is it? What has me? I'm gone, and he has me. I don't know. My dreams lie with someone else, someone I don't know, someone I love, someone I may never meet. Where are you? I can't help wondering if you'll never be here, If I'll always miss you. I can't help wondering what's happening to me, and what will happen to me. I've lost myself to you, and you can't find me to give it back. Where are we in this mess, in the vast distance between here and now. God forgive me for what I've done, for who I am. God forgive me.