Gracie
Today we had to put my cat to sleep. I know it sounds crazy, but I feel like a killer and its the worst feeling in the world. She was really sick and dying anyway, but I really did love her. She was a family member. I grew up with her. She meant so much to me. I've never met a cat who was so gentle and wanted to be around people so much.
I've been crying all day. I couldn't watch them inject her and everyone waiting in the vet's office looked at my crying family like we were crazy. And we were. For Gracie.
Last night she and I slept together and I could feel her bones through her skin. This morning at around 6:30am I woke to hair raising meows, like nails against a chalk board. We had to do what we did to stop the pain, yet I feel so guilt ridden and sad.
Tomorrow I leave for Israel. I2 hours on the plane. 10 days in the Holy Land. 14 hours back. Why?? What is the point of this trip? I have no idea why I'm even going. I don't care. BUT if I get a nice Jewish doctor husband out if it, so be it.
I just want to curl up in bed with a pint of ice cream and cry.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
I've been crying all day. I couldn't watch them inject her and everyone waiting in the vet's office looked at my crying family like we were crazy. And we were. For Gracie.
Last night she and I slept together and I could feel her bones through her skin. This morning at around 6:30am I woke to hair raising meows, like nails against a chalk board. We had to do what we did to stop the pain, yet I feel so guilt ridden and sad.
Tomorrow I leave for Israel. I2 hours on the plane. 10 days in the Holy Land. 14 hours back. Why?? What is the point of this trip? I have no idea why I'm even going. I don't care. BUT if I get a nice Jewish doctor husband out if it, so be it.
I just want to curl up in bed with a pint of ice cream and cry.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.