need to vent
okay i need to vent right now so this is not going to be pretty... i'm applying for teaching jobs... a lot of them, last count i had over 300 apps out. and i'm not getting a single one! and everytime i do get an interview i'm rejected, EVEN BY THE DISTRICT I CURRENTLY WORK FOR! i can't catch a break... and my mom is pushing and pushing and i just need her to BACK OFF but she won't even though i told her i need her to... and it's PISSING ME OFF TO NO END! how would she like to essentially have been rejected so many times and told you're not good enough so much and then to have someone sit there and tell you that you can't stop now and that you have to keep applying! i can't deal with it anymore and she just won't back off...
not to mention it's close to September and that's when i always get depressed, so i'm constantly being rejected and already heading towards my not so great time of the year... this is getting very difficult to deal with and something is going to give soon and not in a good way. i spent 20 minutes earlier crying because i was turned down by the district that i'm working for and I DO NOT NEED ANY OF THIS!!!
not to mention it's close to September and that's when i always get depressed, so i'm constantly being rejected and already heading towards my not so great time of the year... this is getting very difficult to deal with and something is going to give soon and not in a good way. i spent 20 minutes earlier crying because i was turned down by the district that i'm working for and I DO NOT NEED ANY OF THIS!!!