On Being Done
I've had enough negativity for one lifetime.
I'm taking what I said about being done last night, and I'm running with it. But with that, honestly, I'm going on with my life.
There is very little useful in the things that people have said to and about me lately... particularly the ones who've told me what they've thought, and then run away and hide. BUT, people like Sheryl and Roger (harley) and Jess have reminded me that underneath all of that shit, there are usually one or two things that you can take and live your life with, and that you have to let go of the anger, take a deep breath, take those things, and go on.
The sad thing is, a lot of those things I already knew about myself. You know, all two of them. ;)
But, at any rate, I think that it's honestly time to move on.
I think that I'm a genuine person. I'm the kind of person that I want to meet in the world, and I'll continue to try to be that person more and more every day. I care for people, I love people, I protect people, and I want what's best for the people around me. I make mistakes, I'm more honest than what some people want, I'm sometimes clumsy, but, probably the biggest fault I have, is that I don't trust myself.
So, I'm doing that. Trusting Crys. And taking the few gems buried under all of the shit that people have given me lately, washing them off, and pocketing them.
And that's it. Today, I turn over a new leaf. The people who want to throw rocks at me and then run away? They don't have access to me anymore. They're more than welcome to go on and live out their lives as immaturely and co-dependently as they want to. I'm pulling a Kate... I'm sweeping the drama out the back door. And anyone who wants to start to create drama with me? Watch yourself. I don't have a lot of patience or grace for it anymore.
I have a lot of people who are wonderful in my life, and I'm choosing, consciously, to build friendships with and focus my energy on THOSE people. There are others I can't do anything for, who can't do anything for me. They're not going to do anything but continue to damage me if I allow them to. It's my choice whether I allow them to.
And I'm cutting them off.
Today is my day. I'm washing all of this nonsense out of my hair, and I'm going on. Today is my Samhain, still going on a month later. The leaves are falling from the trees and to the ground with beautiful fiery brilliance, and the brush will rest through the winter. And in the spring, new leaves will come.
In the spring, new leaves will come.
And with these little deaths, life grows.
Love,
Crystal
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I'm taking what I said about being done last night, and I'm running with it. But with that, honestly, I'm going on with my life.
There is very little useful in the things that people have said to and about me lately... particularly the ones who've told me what they've thought, and then run away and hide. BUT, people like Sheryl and Roger (harley) and Jess have reminded me that underneath all of that shit, there are usually one or two things that you can take and live your life with, and that you have to let go of the anger, take a deep breath, take those things, and go on.
The sad thing is, a lot of those things I already knew about myself. You know, all two of them. ;)
But, at any rate, I think that it's honestly time to move on.
I think that I'm a genuine person. I'm the kind of person that I want to meet in the world, and I'll continue to try to be that person more and more every day. I care for people, I love people, I protect people, and I want what's best for the people around me. I make mistakes, I'm more honest than what some people want, I'm sometimes clumsy, but, probably the biggest fault I have, is that I don't trust myself.
So, I'm doing that. Trusting Crys. And taking the few gems buried under all of the shit that people have given me lately, washing them off, and pocketing them.
And that's it. Today, I turn over a new leaf. The people who want to throw rocks at me and then run away? They don't have access to me anymore. They're more than welcome to go on and live out their lives as immaturely and co-dependently as they want to. I'm pulling a Kate... I'm sweeping the drama out the back door. And anyone who wants to start to create drama with me? Watch yourself. I don't have a lot of patience or grace for it anymore.
I have a lot of people who are wonderful in my life, and I'm choosing, consciously, to build friendships with and focus my energy on THOSE people. There are others I can't do anything for, who can't do anything for me. They're not going to do anything but continue to damage me if I allow them to. It's my choice whether I allow them to.
And I'm cutting them off.
Today is my day. I'm washing all of this nonsense out of my hair, and I'm going on. Today is my Samhain, still going on a month later. The leaves are falling from the trees and to the ground with beautiful fiery brilliance, and the brush will rest through the winter. And in the spring, new leaves will come.
In the spring, new leaves will come.
And with these little deaths, life grows.
Love,
Crystal
Wanna talk about it? Come visit my little world.
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