Long over due update
Wow, seems so long since I have posted here. It really has been. So much has happened in my life. I have grown ans changed in ways I never believed would happen to me. As of this moment I have been living in Grand Forks, ND since the middle of December of last year. It smells funny here but outside of that, all is pretty well mundane around here. I go to work, then sleep, and do it all over again. I think I will miss this little place when I move on, it has seemed to grow on me a little. One thing I have discovered about myself, is that I apparently crave new experiences and adventure. Once my step-mother said that I have a wander-lust, at the time I laughed at the horrid assumption but after some time and re-examination of my action; seems she was correct. I currently have plans to move to New York at the end of this month and am ecstatic over the prospected move across country again. I have always wanted to live in New York, although I always envisioned my self in New York NY, not Rochester NY. Maybe I will have to put that on my hit list of places to live, who knows.
I have loved hard and lost love hard in the past few years and I am sad to find myself even more cold and distant towards people of all kind. I have latched on to a few people from my life that have remained hard and true on this journey of life. They have become my rocks and I theirs. They have been more family to me than any other single person alive (exception to my nephews) and I honestly don't know what I would do with out them. Britney and David have manged to deal with all of my crazy faults and love the ones I hate. They are the brother and sister I wish I had all growing up, I feel blessed to have found them later in life though. God provides when we are in need, and I truly needed them. I do find it sad that I am unable to form a relationship of any kind of meaning with other people though, no matter how much I care about them, there is no one I could not walk out the door on tomorrow and feel guilty about leaving behind. One day I hope someone will come along with the right chisel to break threw the walls I have erected around myself.
For the hell of it I took that personality test again, I didn't do better...
DisorderRatingParanoid:Very HighSchizoid:Very HighSchizotypal:HighAntisocial:HighBorderline:Very HighHistrionic:HighNarcissistic:Very HighAvoidant:HighDependent:Very HighObsessive-Compulsive:High
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I have loved hard and lost love hard in the past few years and I am sad to find myself even more cold and distant towards people of all kind. I have latched on to a few people from my life that have remained hard and true on this journey of life. They have become my rocks and I theirs. They have been more family to me than any other single person alive (exception to my nephews) and I honestly don't know what I would do with out them. Britney and David have manged to deal with all of my crazy faults and love the ones I hate. They are the brother and sister I wish I had all growing up, I feel blessed to have found them later in life though. God provides when we are in need, and I truly needed them. I do find it sad that I am unable to form a relationship of any kind of meaning with other people though, no matter how much I care about them, there is no one I could not walk out the door on tomorrow and feel guilty about leaving behind. One day I hope someone will come along with the right chisel to break threw the walls I have erected around myself.
For the hell of it I took that personality test again, I didn't do better...
DisorderRatingParanoid:Very HighSchizoid:Very HighSchizotypal:HighAntisocial:HighBorderline:Very HighHistrionic:HighNarcissistic:Very HighAvoidant:HighDependent:Very HighObsessive-Compulsive:High
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