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So I don't really care who you are reading this or what you might think of me after reading it, cause well most likely it will be misread and yeah....I'm only writing here so other friends won't read and start lecturing me. So nah!
So I'm not the MOST reliable of girlfriends and the most considerate in ways. I'm kind of the type that gets bored really easy, doesn't always think before acting, when alcohol is involved I tend to do stupid regretable things, and I don't always stick to my limits....especially when dating someone. However, I have met/am dating this amazing guy. I say that about all of them, but not ONE of them ever was able to get me to worry about what I'm gonna do, like this guy does. Example : I was out partying my lovely "supergirl" this weekend. I could have had SO many different oppertunities with a few people at the party, but I never even noticed that until a converstation I had about the party last night. No other guy there seemed to exsist...well besides my guy friends I knew there. I was so nervous that I would pull a me and get really toasted and friendly....and try hooking up with someone at that party. That's kind of the reason I was happy he couldn't be there...I didn't want my drunkness to kick in and well I ruin what we have. Not to sound like a whore (but I might) I'm not the girl who would really stop herself from having fun and drinking like she wants when I've only been dating a guy for like a week...I'm the type that it wouldn't matter to me and I would enjoy myself and well probably be stupid. Yet....I actually walked away from the party TWICE just to go call him and hear his voice....cause I missed him! I don't do that!!!! I'm not trying to like amp up my situation with this guy or anything, but I really want to be good to him and not lose him. I know it's still early in the relationship, but he's already broken my comfort zone and totally won me over.
It's really hard for me to be SO comfortable and friend-like with a boy so early in the relationship........hell and I can't EVER just sit in silence with a guy....that just DOESN'T happen with me. Not even half my friends can I sit in silence with. I mean I'm an active, bouncy, loud person....I need that kind of an atmosphere all the time, but with this guy....I can just sit next to him, my head on his shoulder, in the silence, and not move or say anything....and not fall asleep. Hell I just stare and smile and this guy ALL the time.....NOT LIKE ME! My friends can honestly vouch for the fact that I'm not exactly behaving like myself when I'm with him or thinking about him or heck anything involving him. It's not like everyday I find a guy who (and I quote tina) "you're twitterpated",,,,it's just not all that common with me.
I know I fall fast and hard.....always, but this I know is different. Much different than the norm for me. and I LIKE IT!