Late night entries...
Real life post. Good and kind of bad stuff. Feel free to skip.
Okay, I would put this under a cut but I can't cuz LJ is being a little pain right now...
First off, all you people who recommended music to me, again, THANK YOU! It's so funny, I sometimes feel strange listening to instrumental and opera and that sort of stuff in my car, but a lot of those recommendations will be going in there as well. Ever since I was driving back home from a Rage Against the Machine show with the top down on my car with the soundtrack to A Clockwork Orange blasting (it's almost all Beethoven) and had some guy in a car next to me ask what arrangement it was, I haven't cared.
Moving on, I lost consciousness today. My husband was at a hockey game and I had just gotten off the phone with my mom. I was going to open a can of corn, set it on the counter to go get the can opener out of the drawer, and came to on the kitchen floor. I'm pretty sure it wasn't a seizure because with my seizures, I have this amnesia that lasts about fifteen minutes (I don't remember ANYTHING - my name, phone numbers, addresses, nothing) and I get real sick and feel really euphoric. Not to mention the pain because I usually thrash a lot and knock my skull and other body parts around. Last time I bit off part of my tongue and hit my head so hard that one of my contacts came out. I came to the conclusion that I must have simply passed out. I'm on my period and have been known to do that before, but the last time was about ten years ago. So yeah, that made for a fun evening.
To help bring up the mood, I got an email from General Electric saying that I was in the running for consideration for a lead accountant in their financial reporting group. It's more money than I used to get and it's much closer to home. Plus, IT'S A JOB! So here's hoping...
Last night, my husband was out for a photo shoot and I wanted to go see the movie "I Saw the Devil" (see trailer HERE), but it was only playing at one of our independent theathers (The Lagoon) and it was only playing at 8, so I couldn't wait for him to get home. The problem with The Lagoon is it is in Uptown where I really hate to drive and the stupid place and its parking only accept cash and checks, which I don't have. I purposely don't have a PIN number on my check card because the thing would have no money on it if I did. Anyhow, I knew the movie had been released on DVD in Korea already, so I looked it up and found the mkv file somewhere, only to find out it had no subtitles and I couldn't play it on my Playstation cuz it doesn't play mkv files. So I had to find and synch up the subs and finally I gave up on trying to change the file type and burn it because nothing was working and just watched it on my laptop.
OH MY GOD.
Please bear in mind that this is a very violent disturbing film. It's just harsh, but in a way that I felt was necessary for the flow of the story. It's about a man whose girlfriend is killed by a madman and he seeks revenge. If any of you have seen the film "Oldboy", the man who played the protaganist in that film plays the killer in this one. So it's a complete one eighty. And he does a GREAT job at acting like a psycho. You just hate him when you watch the film. But I really liked it. It's not at all happy because it shows the real monstrous side of humans, whether it be in the character of the killer or the one who is seeking vengeance. Despite its brutality, I think its one of the best movies I've seen in quite a while. Highly recommend it.
So I'll be taking my husband to see it at The Lagoon tomorrow because he refuses to watch movies on the computer. Plus, the one at The Lagoon is the unrated one and I got the cut one last night. Like that wasn't enough, but curiosity looms.
So I'm listening to "Disintegration" by The Cure. LOVE this album. But I feel like I'm in a Bret Easton Ellis novel when I listen to it. So I was on Tumblr a while back and all I was doing was reblogging and posting Bret Easton Ellis stuff. So I'm in Bret Easton Ellis mode. That just means I need to write cuz he's my writing muse. The man needs to write another book like, NOW. I read "Imperial Bedrooms" in about three days. Oh, and I LOVE the people who bitched about that novel. It's the sequel to "Less Than Zero" for God's sake! Like the characters are suddenly going to all grow a moral compass? Ranting...
It''s three in the morning. My hours are so fucked up ever since the layoff. No wonder I passed out. My body hasn't been the same in months.
And to everyone on my friends list, thank you so much for your kind words over the past few months on everything, whether it be PMs or even just commenting on art. I have had a very difficult time emotionally since being laid off and doing things like art for you guys has helped keep my mind off that evil part of me telling me I'm worthless. Just knowing you guys are out there is SO nice, regardless of how much you know it. So, THANK YOU.
Okay, I would put this under a cut but I can't cuz LJ is being a little pain right now...
First off, all you people who recommended music to me, again, THANK YOU! It's so funny, I sometimes feel strange listening to instrumental and opera and that sort of stuff in my car, but a lot of those recommendations will be going in there as well. Ever since I was driving back home from a Rage Against the Machine show with the top down on my car with the soundtrack to A Clockwork Orange blasting (it's almost all Beethoven) and had some guy in a car next to me ask what arrangement it was, I haven't cared.
Moving on, I lost consciousness today. My husband was at a hockey game and I had just gotten off the phone with my mom. I was going to open a can of corn, set it on the counter to go get the can opener out of the drawer, and came to on the kitchen floor. I'm pretty sure it wasn't a seizure because with my seizures, I have this amnesia that lasts about fifteen minutes (I don't remember ANYTHING - my name, phone numbers, addresses, nothing) and I get real sick and feel really euphoric. Not to mention the pain because I usually thrash a lot and knock my skull and other body parts around. Last time I bit off part of my tongue and hit my head so hard that one of my contacts came out. I came to the conclusion that I must have simply passed out. I'm on my period and have been known to do that before, but the last time was about ten years ago. So yeah, that made for a fun evening.
To help bring up the mood, I got an email from General Electric saying that I was in the running for consideration for a lead accountant in their financial reporting group. It's more money than I used to get and it's much closer to home. Plus, IT'S A JOB! So here's hoping...
Last night, my husband was out for a photo shoot and I wanted to go see the movie "I Saw the Devil" (see trailer HERE), but it was only playing at one of our independent theathers (The Lagoon) and it was only playing at 8, so I couldn't wait for him to get home. The problem with The Lagoon is it is in Uptown where I really hate to drive and the stupid place and its parking only accept cash and checks, which I don't have. I purposely don't have a PIN number on my check card because the thing would have no money on it if I did. Anyhow, I knew the movie had been released on DVD in Korea already, so I looked it up and found the mkv file somewhere, only to find out it had no subtitles and I couldn't play it on my Playstation cuz it doesn't play mkv files. So I had to find and synch up the subs and finally I gave up on trying to change the file type and burn it because nothing was working and just watched it on my laptop.
OH MY GOD.
Please bear in mind that this is a very violent disturbing film. It's just harsh, but in a way that I felt was necessary for the flow of the story. It's about a man whose girlfriend is killed by a madman and he seeks revenge. If any of you have seen the film "Oldboy", the man who played the protaganist in that film plays the killer in this one. So it's a complete one eighty. And he does a GREAT job at acting like a psycho. You just hate him when you watch the film. But I really liked it. It's not at all happy because it shows the real monstrous side of humans, whether it be in the character of the killer or the one who is seeking vengeance. Despite its brutality, I think its one of the best movies I've seen in quite a while. Highly recommend it.
So I'll be taking my husband to see it at The Lagoon tomorrow because he refuses to watch movies on the computer. Plus, the one at The Lagoon is the unrated one and I got the cut one last night. Like that wasn't enough, but curiosity looms.
So I'm listening to "Disintegration" by The Cure. LOVE this album. But I feel like I'm in a Bret Easton Ellis novel when I listen to it. So I was on Tumblr a while back and all I was doing was reblogging and posting Bret Easton Ellis stuff. So I'm in Bret Easton Ellis mode. That just means I need to write cuz he's my writing muse. The man needs to write another book like, NOW. I read "Imperial Bedrooms" in about three days. Oh, and I LOVE the people who bitched about that novel. It's the sequel to "Less Than Zero" for God's sake! Like the characters are suddenly going to all grow a moral compass? Ranting...
It''s three in the morning. My hours are so fucked up ever since the layoff. No wonder I passed out. My body hasn't been the same in months.
And to everyone on my friends list, thank you so much for your kind words over the past few months on everything, whether it be PMs or even just commenting on art. I have had a very difficult time emotionally since being laid off and doing things like art for you guys has helped keep my mind off that evil part of me telling me I'm worthless. Just knowing you guys are out there is SO nice, regardless of how much you know it. So, THANK YOU.