hey kiddos

[ladymadrox187]

have you ever just been so overwhelmed with shit going on in your life? well thats how im feeling right now.... its almost as if im just tired of everything going on my friends are great, everything on the outside seems perfect until you get into my deep inner thoughts, its crazy im depressed actually more than i have been in a long time (yea i know happy go lucky me) its been a long time since ive felt so down i mean i wish there was somthing i could do to cheer me up. i miss everyone in chesterfield even though soon im gonna be back there then i think about everyone here and i know im gonna miss them all like hell....so im torn between happiness and sadness i dont know which to feel i dont know anymore everything seems to be crashing down inside of me and i feel like screaming but then i forget i cant just do that anymore my lifes so crammed with shit that i dont even think i have time to do that.....i mean i dont think ive been even really able to smile in a long time yea there have been some but there not true i just want to be able to put a REAL smile on just so i can feel it. this seems like all im doing is complaining about my life and im sorry. but how i feel is how i feel i love everyone and i hope you all know that.this is not me trying to get attention or anything so im really sorry if i made it out like that. well im gonna go so i can watch some CSI peace.

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