Its not just flowers ....

Jul 30, 2005 13:45

I don't know what to do.
My great aunt came to visit last night. My grandfather was supposed to stop by the house so she could see it and then head to Bucci's for dinner. I leave work at my normal time, stop and grab a Mc'ds cheeseburger on the way home, and come home to clean. I grab a lemonaid at home and head to the bedroom to tackle the mound of clothes. We are really bad about keeping the bedroom clean, and I think I kicked up alot of dirt + cat hair. Well it made me sick, literally. I had just finished cleaning up that mess when Jim came home. I asked him to help me get ready, and told him I'd been sick. Jim went into the bedroom and opened up the windows and shades, unknown to me at the time. Jim went off to the kitchen I think to work on the dishes. I headed to the bedroom to change out of the clothes I had thrown up in, (they weren't particularly dirty, but I still HAD to change. I pull down my pants and underwear and look up to grab a new pair out of the dresser and I see a guy stairing at me out of the window! I tell Jim not to open the blinds in the bedroom, and he storms off upstairs saying I'm unappriciative of what he was trying to do. (Note: Our bedroom in on the first floor, and the window in question looks right onto our neighbors driveway about 4-5 feet away).

I'm just so upset its beyond words, anytime I want to clean the house he does this. He makes me beg him to help me, does some little chore, I say anything at all besides how amazingly wonderfull he is for doing whatever small task it is, he storms off and refuses to help because of how 'horrible' I treat him. EVERY time.

I just really feel like he doesn't love me right now. He won't do anything to show me and everythings always about him. I tell him I want you to bring me flowers, it really bothers me that you don't bring me flowers and yet I never get flowers. (And really flowers could equal any unexpected surprise). He keeps asking if we're going to do gifts for our anniversery, because he cann't think of anything to get me. :(. I just want some help around the house. I got a job to make Jim happy, and I just cann't do my job and keep up the house. Or I guess maybe I could but I'm so resentful the he refuses to do anything, and if he does anything somehow its this huge favor to me instead of all the house work that has to get done anyway.
I just want him to want to take care of me when I'm sick. To say Kelly don't worry, I know its really important to you to have a nice house to show off to your stuck up relatives, but your sick and cann't do it, here laydown and I'll take care of everything for you because I just want YOU to be happy.
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