Eh
Bad night, really bad night... Chad's out partying with his friends, and I called him because I needed to talk to him about what had been upsetting me, but I don't think he was really listening, so I just got off the phone with him. Then I had an argument with my dad because he wont give me one fucking cigarette to calm me down. I tear apart the house, cant find any cigarettes. At this point I'm hysterical crying, because I damn near had a panic attack, and nobody wanted to give me the time of day to tell them that. Nobody cared enough to talk to me about it... Then Lindsay called Chad to tell him that he upset me, and now he thinks that I'm mad at him. The funny thing is, I wasn't mad at him at all, but the fact that he didn't believe that I wasn't mad at him got me mad at him. Confusing, yes, try to follow... So I'm just trying to calm down, and I can't get myself back to sleep. Hopefully when I wake up things will be better...