Random thoughts
Right now, life is just random. I feel like i'm not really getting much done, but i'm doing a lot, if that makes sense. I've been hanging out w/different people than i usually do, and getting some interesting insights. Who knew that I am the "trash collector" for the world (thanks nate)?
Ready for a confession? When i get bored, i just read random people's livejournals, and today it made me really sad. Well color=#6633ff>man. I mean, as much as my family drives me absolutely fucking crazy sometimes, i know that if i ever needed them they'd be there. same with my friends. I guess it just makes me appreciate stuff more.
Speaking of appreciating stuff, my mom tells me a couple days ago that i don't seem to be grateful for all the things that people do for me. I don't get it. I really am grateful for all the money that her and my dad spend and the time and energy they spend trying to make me happy. But apparently, i need to be more dramatic in my gratitude. Just saying "thanks it meant a lot" isn't enough. I guess i need to weep and sob and fling myself on the floor to show how truly moved i am (haha sound familiar?).
Anyways, yesterday i also went to go see the nutritionist. I guess i've decided not to hide stuff from the world in this live journal. so i go, and we chat a little bit and we talk about the freshman fifteen and excessive restriction, etc. And she says that I need to keep a food journal for the next week. If she thought that was going to help me eat more, she was fucking dead wrong. It is still so tempting to look at everything i've eaten and start counting calories. Bad Lauren. Oh well. By the way, people who don't know me very well, please do'nt think i'm a freak cuz of this last paragraph.
Anyways, i gotta go take a shower. Thanks for listening to me!