its long, but if youre a quick reader...
anonymous, you post more than my friends
i only come back here to be greedy...
maybe you're still watching
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a handsome lad keeps appearing in my dreams
ive never met him, but his eyes are very wide and trusting
he's usually slender and smooth.
when he's in my dreams...he always is in the next room;working at reaching me.
he's not the man who i think i love in "real" daytime world
jump into my dreams, i might stay there
im much more honest there; ive refused a man twice at an altar in two different dreams. this man i know and love most frequently
dumbfounded and terrified, i wake up
.
becoming more judgmental of my appearance
quit cigarettes...for good
packed away my art, not much space in my cave
had a goldfish for a year, named it champion, it died this summer
now ive got a nameless beta fish. he's red and has black gills
.
please, send me more love. HERE is very lonely and far from laughing friends. out of the circle. not hip. even worse with a love an hour away... still so much doubt in myself if he really could love all of me. theres just so many people out there. im 24 and already tired.
.
i havent stopped trying to impress.
.
i had a delightful reunion with alex beck. he seems more pleasent then ever.
i lost garrett's ex's pipe. though, i think it was pick-pocketed...karma?
.
no pattern to this. when reading this again, might suggest deleting...
i only come back here to be greedy...
maybe you're still watching
.
a handsome lad keeps appearing in my dreams
ive never met him, but his eyes are very wide and trusting
he's usually slender and smooth.
when he's in my dreams...he always is in the next room;working at reaching me.
he's not the man who i think i love in "real" daytime world
jump into my dreams, i might stay there
im much more honest there; ive refused a man twice at an altar in two different dreams. this man i know and love most frequently
dumbfounded and terrified, i wake up
.
becoming more judgmental of my appearance
quit cigarettes...for good
packed away my art, not much space in my cave
had a goldfish for a year, named it champion, it died this summer
now ive got a nameless beta fish. he's red and has black gills
.
please, send me more love. HERE is very lonely and far from laughing friends. out of the circle. not hip. even worse with a love an hour away... still so much doubt in myself if he really could love all of me. theres just so many people out there. im 24 and already tired.
.
i havent stopped trying to impress.
.
i had a delightful reunion with alex beck. he seems more pleasent then ever.
i lost garrett's ex's pipe. though, i think it was pick-pocketed...karma?
.
no pattern to this. when reading this again, might suggest deleting...